Fiendster

Yes, the feud keeps getting worse to worst everyday. When will it stop? I can't stand seeing people cry. Damn you guys GROW UP!

I am starting to harvest total anger on you two and it keeps on building up every single day. Isang araw baka di niyo na lang ako makita you idiots. Your too old for this.

I wish I a have a different yous.

Kasi I hate you guys.

Damn.

What's Playing...

1. 'GET ME BODIED'
B'day
Beyonce Knowles

It's phat you guys you should give it a try. I really can't stop playing it over and over my MP kasi I feel like I'm in the club pag pinapatugtog ko eh. It's more than phat it's my shi-hat. Go download it on your MP's it's really a thuggin' song that makes, well at least me, tap my fingers and feet anywhere, everywhere.



2. 'VOODOO DOLL'
The Dutchess
Fergie

It's like a Jamaican wannabe kinda song that is a mix of pop and R&B, all-in-all, it's the bomb. I've heard Fergie do that accent she does on the song with her B.E.P. songs na rin naman pero this is better. Way, way, way better. It's the shi-hat for Jamaican clubs that has hiphop clients. And P.S. The song makes me do the robot. You'll get what I mean when you hear the beat.

So there you have it. My most played songs on my 3650 MP Player Application.

Enjoy.

FASHION WINDOWS @ R/GATEWAY MALL

I couldn't be more prouder than proud with what we did with our window display for Ladies & Men's Department. God it's sobrang ganda. Okay so I did a hundred and one percent of all the mannequin styling, making them look like New Yorkers and all, tapos the guys hung the callados. Pero I did help a bit, yun nga lang trabahong pang-maton yun not for somebody like me. Wish lang nilang makapagsabit ako ng hook sa ceiling and make the callados float like angels.

Pero in totality, I really love our fashion windows. It's very inspiring to work on the other department kasi siyempre pag maganda yung isa, dapat maganda lahat...God I'm not making any sense am I? Haha...Basta I can't stop staring at our windows. It's on my phone, it's everywhere! AARGH! :)

Pag di pa nagustuhan ni Big Boss yun magreresign na talaga ko.

Carebears

I am currently not in a state of in love nor for friendship kinda like. So whatever's in between the two, that's me.

I care for you Tzizy!

:)

Lesson for 2007: FAMILY TIES

Why is it that we only learn best when we've undergone the worst?
Why can't we just be dictated of the shoulda, woulda, couldas of life instead of actually experiencing it all? Sometimes I really don't get God. He really puts you on a spot where he tests you, and when He does, god its excruciating.

STORY: It's hard to tell. It's truly personal and highly confidential, and I must say it's more intriguing than my love life and sex scams. Let me coil it into one term and you do the connecting and whatsoevers to figure it out.

INFIDELITY.

The term has actually led me to hating this person so much that I've finally realized na I have to pick up the pieces that he has left. I have to start caring for the people that I truly love and be more mature on what I do, what I really do, with my life. It's not easy being emotional and all. It's truly heartbreaking. Have you ever experienced a person of bloodline cry in front of you in the middle of the night? It pains me a lot. I wish I could just die and disappear pero I thought na it would be better if I act and be a man about it. It's all happening, its all for real, and I have to accept the fact na things will never be the same again.


Friends, comrades, if you're thinking na this is another pokpok story of mine, please. It's not. Give me a break and do not comment on this is you aren't connected with the story and all.

I am serious.

Peace out.

Infidelity

in·fi·del·i·ty (nf-dl-t)

NOUN:
pl. in·fi·del·i·ties

1. 1. Unfaithfulness to a sexual partner, especially a spouse.
   2. An act of sexual unfaithfulness.
2. Lack of fidelity or loyalty.
3. Lack of religious belief.

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Here's what people on the net has to say about infidelity:
(source: http://www.beliefnet.com/boards_mini/index.asp?boardID=2899 )

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'Infidelity destroys your relationship with your spouse, your children and crushes any self esteem you may have had left. Everything you see, do and feel has a different feel and dimension. I once thought that I learned from an affair how much more I really loved my husband, but I just was kidding myself. I know how much I love him because I have lost that love because I fulfilled my selfish urges and insecurities. I want to work to help others prevent taking the same path and to reunite couples who have suffered from. In God's name we must live by his commandments, they were written to help us, not police us.'

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'Being tempted & giving in, to the temptation, are two very different animals!! Yes, we are only human, and we all have needs that must be met. But, when you are in a marriage, putting yourself first can be a big mistake! You must truely give of yourself, and live your life for God and your spouse (the love of your life & partner in this life). Needing to experiment & explore outside of your marriage to meet YOUR needs, in a word, is SELFISH. Self fullfillment at the expense of your partners feelings will become devastating in the end. Regardless of what human nature might be, sometimes self control and SACRIFICE need to be exercised!! I know this. I have experienced the pain of guilt and of being betrayed. But, through Christ, all things are possible. Turning to him is healing our wounds. This can be true for anyone who accepts and belives!!'

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'To me, infidelity is where you violate the trust that you pledge to another-be it your spouse, God, or whoever.

The tragedy is that infidelity is born out of complacency in the marriage. We take each other for granted and don't take the initiative to "spice things up" (or at least talk). The complacency turns into boredom, and the boredom turns into a recipe for infidelity.

As a married person, I realize that infidelity in my life will be more harm than good. Plus it diminishes four people: God, and His place in my life: my wife, and her place in my life; the other woman, and her self-worth as a human being; and myself, devaluing my self-worth.

If the temptation comes by, I always ask myself "is it worth it" and the answer's always "no".'

I am currently making love to myself.

Meet my partner.

I'm complicated...

I really don't get myself most of the time.

1. Why do I tend to consider every task in the office, either micro or macro, a big thing?
2. When I eat why do I always place the cup on my right, the tissue on my left, my cellphone over it, my wallet on my putotoy, my fries near my cup and my add-ons on the left? If I have pens I place them neatly, dark to light, all caps on top. If I have my notebook with me I place all my pens on top of it. Neatly.
3. Why do I iron my hair everyday kahit minsan parang walang epekto?
4. Why do I care about people so much kahit hindi ko ka-close?
5. Why do I still eat a lot of junk kahit deep inside I so wanna lose weight?
6. Why do I fear people kahit na alam kong wala silang kwenta?
7. Why do I fall in love with the wrong person? Always...And most of the time I thought I've learned na from my past experiences, whereas in fact, I'm committing the same mistake over and over again...
8. When I'm using a computer, I always place a pillow over my tummy, my cel on the left side of the screen.
9. I am the creator of nipples. On my lip balm, on my face powder, on my clay-doh wax. It's hard to explain visually pero I can show you just ask for it.

I seriously think I have a disease. Damn I'm complicated...

My MACking Story

This is in connection with my Hallmark trip in Pasig.

I had to use a MAC computer using Adobe CS and Illustrator and make an ad for BIC. Damn nabaliw ako. All the time I was sitting there I was thinking...

'...this iz it...I am so dead...'

God why does MAC computers have to make their controls way, way different from the normal ones. It's sobrang drastic. I was feeling sobrang stupid na and I just want to become a bubble and burst nung start ng exam ko. God I can't use the keyboard short-cuts kasi the short-cuts are different sa MAC. My god mawawalan ako ng career!

TIP TO SELF: Next time, learn to save.
While working on my second ad, nagclose ang CS ko. So I was only able to submit one. That's even more humiliating.

Damn.

NXL 543

So here's the story on NXL 543. I was on my way home after seeing 'Blood Diamond' last Friday. It was around 12:30-1 in the madaling araw na and as usual, I have to take the freaking ordinary and oh so deadly Pascual Bus Liner trip from Gateway to my place. It's the only means of transpo na I could take at a time like that since I'm sooo kuripot to take a cab pauwi.

So there. I was near na the overpass where I most of the time ask the konduktor to drop me off, then ka-BOOM! Biglang pumreno ang stupid reckless driver namin. I was sitting second sa pinakaharap and ayun, I've literally rolled all the way sa steps ng bus. I was thankful kasi hindi ako nalaglag palabas. And you know what the driver said? Pabulong pa ah..

DRIVER: "Sorry pare (whisper mode)"
CONDUCTOR: "Ayun yung susi kunin mo."
TIM-TAM: (Silent mode...what was I thinking? They are so dead. I am so gonna report them.)

My God 'til now I could feel the pain..literally. My back, my bum, my left arm, and my neck, which, btw, feels like I'm being choked to death kapag masyadong madami unan ko. This sucks. I know na I am a responsibility of the bus company as long as I'm in their liner...

They are so dead. Watch out guys for the freaking drivers of PASCUAL LINER.

They're really deadly. And nobody cares not unless somebody does something about it...

Asta.

This is so gonna hurt.

I'm sure you're all kinda wonderin' ba't walang text ang blog ko? Yeah, yeah I know...It's just that I've decided to shed and change my skin making it more buhay and all. This sucks kasi I really want to change everything from white texts to black ones, pero it's so gonna take forever...

Anyways, I'm really enjoying life lately. God has been so good to me. Remember this year I'm planning to change my career na? Yeah well, Hallmark did not meet my standards. I was a bit flabbergasted when I arrived at their office it was not....hmm..shall I say...so pizazz? I did not get that feeling in pronto feeling na god...this is home. Hindi pa ko natatanggap namimiss ko na ang Rustan's whereas people like me are treated with respect. And so I had to make a decision that will so hurt. Magyayabang ako kasi 10-20 mistakes lang ako sa written exam, sa computer exam...hmm...I'll blog about it tomorrow morning. Sobrang nakakahiya and nakakatawang experience. Manipulating MAC is a disaster! Anyways, what I did was I've asked for a salary bigger than they'd regularly give their senior graphic artists. And I stood by my word na I will not stoop down to the price na I'm requiring them to give me.

Voila. Faster than the speeding light they told me na they'll give me a call pag pumayag ang accounting nila sa price ko.

Well done Tim. :)

Today. Paolo Atienza, my former collegemate texted us informing us na may opening sa Makati for a handicraft designer for export pa! PURRRR---FECTTT! That's so what I'm looking for right now. Anyways I'll apply sometime this week. Tatapusin ko muna ang pull-out namin ng Christmas para wala namang masabi mga ka-Team ko.

And to Kuya Nilo, WELCOME ABOARD! :) Pleasure to work with you sa store. Can't wait!

NOTE TO SELF: NXL543, Pascual Liner
Blog everything tomorrow regarding that plate number. Computer shops closing na. Damn.

Asta people!

I miss these days....

I saw this @ Snook's Friendster account. God I miss these days na parang wala ka ng popoblemahin kundi pambobola ng prof, pagkain, pambobola, kain, kwento, toma, and more kain. I miss those!

Job Hunting Days are B-A-HACK!!

Yup, this Monday I am going to Pasig for my application sa HallMark Cards as a graphic artist which, btw, is a different route from my resolution. Kasi I told myself na this year, magiging designer na ko. Pero we'll see we'll see. If this doesn't work I'll still look for other opportunities. I mean hey, hindi sa nagyayabang, pero Thomasian to, and what's even better? I'm young.

Watch out designers! Here comes Tim-Tam! :)

NON-STOP!

My god Remote and I are fighting non-stop. This is crazy I have to stop this. Sobrang buking na nga sila pero they still insist na they're the good guys. Whatever!

Watch out guys of North! They're out to get ya!

Death

I never imagined na this could ever happen.

Remote's real facade came out after meeting this guy who gave a lot of effort and money for them magpinsan.My god nahilo talaga ko sa nangyari sa min which caused to enter the office around 3a.m. So there. Todong debate regarding hoo-hoos and ha-haas...and I so know what to do...what I usually do fyi.

Investigate.

Manliligaw texted me last Thursday informing me na he was going to Baguio with the magpinsan. At that moment I was thinking, '...my god the nerve!' So I texted remote, sinabi ko na I might not be able to make it kasi my allowance is enough to feed me until next payday. I mean holler, Christmas & New Year came to town, the least that could happen is at least have a hundred bucks pa in your wallet. Anyways, ayun. I became a bit furious with Remote kasi tsaka lang siya nagpanic na iinvite ako to Baguio kung kelan lang ako niyaya ni Manliligaw. So ok, nainis akong konti kasi hindi pala ko ganun kaimportante. So much for friendship.

E di ayun. I knew kasi na they were going to get free tickets back and forth while me, excess baggage lang. Manliligaw was making kulit na I have to go para masaya. Tapos maya-maya he told me na pauutang niya ko and he could pay me til next sweldo..and the his last bid? Free na ko papunta, utang na yung pauwi. Instantly I became the biggest drama queen sa store. I was really pissed. I was going, '..the nerve, the nerve!' all the way from C&T, to Fashion, and to Home. My god!

Nung kinagabihan, ayun. I told them na hindi kasi ako libre sa tickets unlike them. Ayun, naintindihan din nila ko finally. Hindi pala kasi nila alam na di ako free. I felt like such an excess baggage talaga, so pathetic. Then mahabang textan pa kami regarding sa pakikitungo namin sa pinsan ni remote. My god! And when I thought tapos na ang issue and all!

The next day...the day na I felt like giving them up and actually not being hurt about the idea...is exactly the same day I wished for their death.

Manliligaw left everyone na for a good reason....LOVE. Remote was blaming me kasi baka may sinabi daw ako kay Manliligaw para umalis siya ng tuluyan. So ayun, ang habang pag-uusap, Remote even told me na tinetest lang niya ang friendship level ko.....

SO NOT!

Met up with Manliligaw last night and yes, my speculation is true. Ginagamit nila si Manliligaw kasi he could give them everything and anything they wanted. My god binasa ko talaga lahat ng text nila sa kanya and one part, I'll quote na lang, was saying: "Galit na kami kay Tim. Pinuputol na namin friendship namin sa kanya...' My god! I was dropped for no reason. All the time last night I was thinking, '...escorts will be escorts...' Which btw, is their job before. Could you imagine? This is for real guys. Dinrop ako kasi they want to win Manliligaw back. They even texted him na sasama na ulit sila sa Baguio and wag daw niyang pansinin mga pinagsasabi ko kasi wala naman daw ako sa kanila. come on eh wala nga kong dapat sabihin! My god! They really want him back.Pinaggrocery ba naman sila tapos binigyan pa si Remote ng 512MB Memo Card di ka ba naman masilaw pa nun? Besides pa sa free lunch nila everyday ah.

And speaking of groceries and memo card, Remote texted Manliligaw na sinoli na niya yung items na pinagbibigay niya....SO NOT! After nun tumayo na si Manliligaw sa tapat ng gate nila kasi hindi niya nakita yung items na yun sa tapat ng gate nila. Maya-maya sinabi ni Remote na si pinsan lang niya ang nag-return ng items pero nahiya kasi may tao baka daw isipin bomba yun, or whatever. Wrong. Manliligaw never saw pinsan sa labas. Dapat masasalubong niya yun kung totoo. And sa background ng call niya naririnig niya yung dalawa...I felt really sorry for Manliligaw. Even if nakipagtalo pa siya unconsciously sa gifts...naawa pa rin ako.

My god guys beware. If you want to know who these two are just leave a comment or whatever to stop their craziness na. They'll do anything and everything para magkasugar daddy. Beware guys. They live near SM North. If you know anybody from there let me warn you via my Comments menu.

Watch out, watch out.

They'll see.

My First Gown

I am to design my sister's gown for this debu she's attending on the 18th. Baka pagkaperahan ko pa yung kaklase niya. Finally I'm exerting a lot of effort with my hobby and actually earning from it.


Watch out, watch out! :)

Plans? Hmm...I might do braids and pearls. You'll see. :) I'm excited.

Forbidden Love

Two terrible stories to tell. Let me start with the lighter one. One that I thought was excruciating enough to make me deliryo and fantasize about me living with this persona in a perfect world.

Remember remote? God, everyday I try to fight the feeling and the urge to tell how I really feel, pero I just can't. My, oh my...I struggle each day thinking what remote would say pag nagpakatotoo ako sa kanya. It's not that I'm torpe and all, pero the thing is I really don't wanna lose you. I've lost a lot of peeps na for doing what I normally do, paka-taklesa and pasaway, and really I don't want that to happen again. ever. Especially with you. You and your pinsan makes me feel like I really belong in this world, na I have a purpose, you give me inspiration and determination to live each day to the fullest not minding what the others would say basta lagi ka lang pakatotoo...And for that, I'd rather die than to lose what we have...Or to lose what we have because I really wanna be somebody else more than just being your friend. Damn this is so pathetic.

After putukan last night I went over to their place. Brought tinapay with cheese & ham, dad's famous ube and my therapeutic food, not because of the lasa but because it simply releases my tension pag ginagawa ko siya, refrigerator cake, which btw cost me around P400.00. Impossible? FOR REAL! I've spent a lot for the Oreo, M&M's, daming graham crackers both in choco and honey flavor, the disposables na I bought for giveaways, and yeah btw, I made a giant pack for our family, and three minis for friends. So there. I'm really mayabang and proud kasi it's the first time na I've spent a lot for a cake that doesn't even involve cooking. Anyways, there we were. It was actually sweet kasi inantay ako nung three of my girl pals before eating their pancit eh, which btw is ke sobrang sarap and! Remote made it himself. By tsamba pa. Haha...Anyways, hindi talaga sila kumain nung niluto niyang pancit hangga't di kami dumadating. So there. Really had fun. Kahit nakatunganga lang kami the entire night. And I enjoy chatting with remote's pinsan at night. Wala kaming tigil as in! I am assuming two hours before sleeping is devoted to chit-chatting. It was all good.

Then I left around 9 or 10am. Natulog sa bahay then texted them inviting them over sa bahay ko naman for a change. So there we were. Tunganga na naman. I just love seeing you and being beside you. I know your not feeling anything more than friendship when you're with me, pero believe me, I'm more than willing to straighten up pag naging tayo....If magkakaganun man...

God....

Second entry on my forbidden love bloggy is about the two most important people in my life. I really can't tell who they are kasi it's really private and too personal, pero I'm sure you'll get it. I am fearing na they're at the verge of separating...Everyday mag-aaway...My god tipong pati nung New Year's Eve nagsisigawan sila...At first I thought menopausal or mid-life crisis stage lang yung isa...pero no. It's way more serious than expected. I think it's about them, and a third party. What really made me wonder kanina was when I was asking for this person's cellphone and his partner made a senyas not to make pakelam na. My god, that so indicates a somebody diba? Kasi why won't you lend your cellphone kung walang something-something? It's crazy, I never thought this could ever happen! My God this is crazier than the forbidden love that I have for remote. Kala ko remote's such a disease na, then came these two. Plague ito mga bro! It's crazy...

What a way to start the New Year....I am still hoping for a great one though.

Beda's birthday's coming up. JANUARY 3. Happy Birthday you. Hope you're happy and all. I'll always remember you....

Welcome 2007...Even if ang papangit na ng panimula mo...I still welcome you.

Have a great new year readers, friends, whoever...