King of Haggardness

First Day Funk

There we were, late as usual sa first day. Kami pa ni Cenz? Wala atang tatalo. When we arrived at the office we were briefed, and boy when they say brief they mean super short. Ang bilis ng phasing, parang trato nila sa min matagal na kaming nag-eexhibit. Anyways, words like ingress, egress, whichever way it's spelled I couldn't care less basta pare-pareho ko silang di maintindihan!

Wah!

Anyways before I proceed with my CITEM stories, here's a quick review of our 'senior designers':

Reine
My boss. In charge of fashion and jewelry settings sa P.I.C.C. Graduate of Industrial Design sa UST, two years ahead of me. She always has her groove on. How come? She never fails to smile, smile, and more smiles. Damn, penge naman ako niyan. Ako kasi puro emotional stress. :) And did I mention na she's my boss? Hehe...sipsip.

Isa pa, I kinda noticed na she's always in green. The whole week ngayon lang kami nagkatugma sa suot. I purposely wore an olive green micro-shirt over a pink polo shirt. She was in parang moss green undergarment, whatever you girls call it, over a yellow top. First time naming magka-match half-day pa ko. I'll buy green shirts talaga on my first paycheck. In loving memory of. :)

April
She's like a big ate sa amin. Garduate of UP Interior Design. Para ngang nag-oOJT lang siya dun kasi halos ka-age namin and all. She's really nice. Kinda funny pero not like Leslie funny. I think we could be good friends. Sad pero Ma'am Ana told me kanina on our way to Sucat, Bicutan to pick up something na idedeliver naman pala, na April's leaving na by the end of March. Hay. Sana maka-gimik kaming lahat one time. Wala lang bonding session.

Leslie
I find her funny. Ewan ko what exactly her position is pero kaya ako bumabalik balik sa kanya is to ask for my supplies...na usually mighty bond. Haha! Isa siyang babaeng bakla. Pero take note, she is, by nature, a member of the female specie despite the masculine name. And I really like her. Yung mga tipong banat na, '..ang lakas niyo naman sa mighty bond a. Gutom? Sinisinghot?'

Caesar
Garduate of Benilde. Ang taong nag-interview sa min last week na parang inoorient na kami kasi he did not ask me much about me, my proficiencies, etc. etc. etc. Ho yeah, he asked me pala what softwares I could manipulate, and if I have the passion for model construction.

Noni
Bulabog King. Katapat siya ng pantry, a.k.a. 'our office' kaya madalas ko siyang makita. Why bulabog king? He plays the loudest music over the 4-5 players that are turned on all at the same time. San ka pa. Plus, kanina ko lang napansin, he really digs retro music. Hehe... Hanggang ngayon di pa rin dumadating ipapa-model niya kay Cenz. Good thing tapos na kami sa models namin kaya kahit one day due ang ipagawa niya, kayang-kaya kasi lima naman kami.

Steve
The big guy with the small voice. I find the voice thing funny. Hehe kaya pag nagsasalit siya natatawa ako eh. Ok lang sir quits tayo. Ako rin inaasar sa mababang parang ipit kong boses eh. Hehe... He's nice and masipag. Pinakamaswerte nga si Snooky sa min kasi siya ang senior designer niya and why? Tapos na model niya, graphics, etc. Wala kasing inuutos kina Snooks. Hay sarap. Kumikita habang walang ginagawa.

Jaylord, The BIG Boss
Second demanding person sa Exhibition Division. Which I totally understand kasi he's like the OIC slash head ng department namin. (Yung pinaka-demanding I won't tell na. Baka matigok ako in no time.) We do not interact really not unless nag-CR siya, konting chit-chat, or kung may iuutos. Other than that, busy busy busy! He's a grad pala of Industrial din sa UST, and take note: He earned the THESIS OF THE YEAR title.

So basically, the office composes mainly of graduates from UST and UP. Hehe...

Gosh haven't had enough sleep in days simula nung nagstart.

I'll start this new journey muna by introducing the new main characters of my new career. Well, actually my contract's not due until April 29, 2006, so until then, I am an employed persona. Have to find a good and stable one tomorrow sa JOB FAIR in Mega.

Until then I'll update na lang my blog for new journeys including this week's experiences since pagod na pagod ako today. Yesterday kasi ang OT namin is until 10. Arrived sa home around 12, took a bath, tunganga kasi can't sleep, knock-out round 2. Gosh may eyebags na ko! Haven't seen them since thesis days. Damn ganito pala kahirap...

Congrats BATCHMATES! And good luck!

Ang haggard ko!

Ex-CITEM-ent

Woo-hoo! The results are in and they told us na they would be updating us either today or Monday…pero guess what. Yesterday CITEM called and YES! We are so in! Haha! Words could not express the joy and excitement I am having inside of me. It’s as if I have taken ten tablets of ecstasy then another ten capsules of Viagra.

Ganun! :)

Later I’ll get my hair did after blogging I just need to release the rage and the excessive happiness inside of me so that I could function well for the rest of the day.

One question: How the heck do you acquire your cedula?

Damn. My HS bestfriend, Leo, and I did that years ago, a couple na siguro, and I could not seem to remember kung san dapat pumila, then what, who, when, where, and why. Damn.

I am sobrang static. More than you could think of.

I was actually analyzing myself last week and I thought, since palpak ako lagi sa love life, I should be the cliched person who is over empowering, demanding, and super successful type. Kasi diba ganun naman yun usually? If your love life sucks get yourself busy with your career na lang instead. Such a cliche I know. Now I am beginning to understand what it means.

Hay.

Good luck sa min. I hope na I could get to meet a lot of people who could help me start my plan of being an entrepreneur kasi I really have no idea how and where to begin.

On Monday, my life’s never gonna be the same again.

Thank you Lord.

The CITEM Experience

There we were this Tuesday, trip to Design Center, CITEM, then back to UST. Damn that day. It was super init and super ulan pa.

We submitted lang our resume sa Design Center kasi they told us na walang vacancy pa at the moment. They gave us na lang their contact number so we could follow-up our applications. Pero the next day, sabi sa min ni Ryan na there's an opening sa DCP. Damn. Di ko pa natatawagan kasi topak ang phone namin sa house kakaayos sa hinayupak na tapped extensions na yan for our rooms. And so after that punta na kami sa CITEM which is about a kilometer or so away from DCP. We planned to take a cab papunta pero shocks that place, walang dumadaan na taxi. There was this cab na I could view from afar pero its not moving....for hours na...

COMMERCIAL! Damn..may mabaho dito sa library. I'm sure it's not me kasi hindi naman ako amoy tae (Sorry for the vulgar language). Yung naaamoy ko sobra! Eewww!

So there we were sa CITEM. Puntang HRD, fill-up ng application form which took us forever to finish, then submit alongside our resume and portfolio. And then they set an interview and examination na the next day, 10am.

Next day. Tuck-in na naman ang drama ng fashion anthology ko. I was literally feeling pretty in pink. Waited for Cenz sa Dunkin Donut, ordered hot choco para feeling 'Makati Boy' na ko, then took a bus papuntang Leveriza. Damn. Wrong move. Sabi kasi ni Snooky mas mabilis ang way dun since isang sakay lang kami from Edsa. Yeah right, 2hours and a trip to Ayala Avenue. We should have aimed for UST then took a cab na lang. Somewhat close na rin naman ang ibabayad...hmm...mga 40-50 peso difference lang pero ngayon lang naman kasi we had an appointment set. Kapal naman ng mukha naming ma-late.

So there we were, 30-almost an hour-late. Had an interview, which was more of like an orientation, pero holler shouldn't they be doing that if we are eligible for the team? Anyways, the only questions I have to answer are: '...so you have model-construction skills naman?' ; '..prof niyo pa rin ba si Dacanay?'....so far yang dalawa lang naalala ko. The rest of our conversation, oo lang ako ng oo. (Kasi he was informing me on what my job would be like eh. He's not asking infos about me. So what's a Hollywood star to do? Act. :)

Exam. Damn ang haba. Nope, not mahirap, mahaba. The first three parts was consisted of psychological materials which is so much fun. There were questions like, '...if you were a bird, what kind of bird will you be and why?' ; '...if you would become an animal, what kind are you and why?' ; '...if you want to feel one emotion forever, what would it be and why?'...haha! It's so much fun! I was thinking of writing "A Mulawin" sa 'what type of bird-question' eh. Kaso I thought, gusto kong pumasa. The tough part about the exam is that one part was for interior designers, not industrial ones. They asked us to design a condo unit. Damn. Swerte nung isang kasabay naming di namin kilala kasi he took up interior design, so that would be easy for him. I bet naging design project na nila yun before. Tapos yung dalawang item na idedesign (I decided not to disclose for confidentiality and fairness reasons, tama na yung isa) was kinda easy na kaso di pa rin natapos.

The test was limited to two hours. We finished after 5hours. San ka pa. They were not checking up on us eh. Plus, late na naming nalaman. We started around 11am straight, no lunchbreak, no C2 Apple nor Lemon, thank God may hopia and Fita ko sa bag which barely made us survive, and then Viola! Di pa rin ako natapos sa last design test.

Damn. There goes my chance to becoming a future Joseph Hoffman, or an Ottoman, or someone else.

Damn. On Tuesday sasabay naman ako kay Mikko mag-inquire sa Marikina Shoes. I want to design bags and shoes and accessories din besides handicrafts, furnitures, and gadgets. Well, gadgets is really not on my forte pero a little research and a lot of conceptualization should do the trick. I mean, yan naman ginawa ko sa entire 4 years ko sa Industrial Design eh. I should be able to do it.

So there goes my two-day sobrang gaga trip. Had to search pa for more. Ayoko ng hindi ako productive. Sayang oras. Wish me luck.

Happy graduation you guys.

Battle of the Pussies

Are the Pussycat Dolls the latest copycat slash version of the Spice Girls?

Before, I was comparing the two and yes, as to those who knows me well, the Spices reigned as opposed to the Dolls. Pero due to Myx, MTV, and my newly burnt CD containing three tracks from their current album, I must say I'm impressed. They'd have to be the R&B Version of the Spices that I was actually looking for in a girl "pop" band.

Have you heard their version of "Sway"? Damn it's sobrang astig. It has this jazzy, R&B, hip-hop kinda groove into it all-in-one.

Hows about "Buttons"? For me this is their retaliation against Beyonce's "Baby Boy" track. (Not comparing the message of the song but rather on its beat, especially that belly dancing kinda like groove incorporated into it.) As Paris would put it, "That's hot".

Ya sizzle dizzle!

And then one of their latest video's entitled "Beep", what's up naman with that. If that doesn't convince you na they have big (*ahem, not focusing on their bums and bossoms*) potential in the music industry, then I don't what will. It's either that or you have a sore ear for good music. You choose.

Yes, the Spices are extinct, pero when the radio would play some of their old songs it sort of creeps in to you...I'm sorry girls pero if I have to make an analogy on you and the current status of the music industry, Spice Girls : M2M : Dream (the who?).

Pero sige if I am nice enough to compare them to somebody popular, they would be like Destiny's Child when they were first introduced into the scene. Again, if not that, then they'd be Destiny's Back-up Singers.

The VERDICT?

Well, let's just say...this guy loves pussies.

So there. Go figure.

Job Hunter

Is it F-U-N ?

BIG TIME N-O !!!

I've searched the web, classified ads, even my tito's and tita's for the stupid motha-f***** bestest job there could be na pwede ko apllyan.

My mom told me na (heto na naman nanay ko sa pagmamarunong) she knows somebody who could refer me to ABS-CBN, and I thought...'..hmm....baka sa Art Jam lang ako malagay dun....' Not until she told me na yung friend niyang napasok dun is earning PhP.24,000 plus plus plus had I actually considered the job.

Pero know what? I am living the simple life. I practically have no goal of becoming the next winner of Pinoy Big Brother to attain both fame and success. Nope, that's not me.

All I wanna do in life is...well, basically live life to the fullest. I will do what my heart tells me to do. Yun lang. That is the phrase that I am going to live up to. Gagawin ko kung ano trip ko, and I hope, tama ang success plan ko.

Agawan sa CLASSIFIED ADS...

Literal. I was searching for a job related sa Industrial Design and damn, was it hard. I found two ads that caught my attention...na rin (medyo napilitan). The first one is so not related pa to my course pero it could be both a hobby and a side line.

First one I saw was an ad from www.write4pesos .com. They are looking for passionate people who could write a hundred articles consisting of 300-500 words per piece. Interesting....since it is one of my passions, be a part of a magazine (although I have no idea pa kung magazine sila or what) pero it's somewhere near na rin naman my dream. I would really love to talk about fashion, hairstyles, and siyempre, become a silent advocate of the industrial design society (nationwide).

And so I've signed-up and will review muna the things that has to be done. Samples na I have to accomplish, etc., etc., etc.

Second one's an ad looking for GRAPHIC ARTISTS. My passion, better than product development. It's not that I am not gifted with product development prowess, it's just that I enjoy designing packaging and labels, etc, rather than inventing and innovating. I enjoy designing handicrafts though, especially kapag inincoporatan mo na ng indigenous materials, it's actually so much fun kasi ang daming possibilities.

So there. On March 24-26, 2006 naman will be my fourth attempt to look for a job. That's a job fair, MegaTrade Hall. The first was the time na nagka-job fair sa school, the third will be this Sunday, sa Classified Ads ulit and fourth on MegaMall.

Have to go APFTI pa today with JP and other co-OJTers doon to apply. Had so much sa short stay namin dun. Daming exposure.

Then tomorrow, off to Design Center and CITEM! Woo-hoo! Kami na nila Snooks ang literal na mga taong naghahangad makahanap ng magandang trabaho ngunit umuwing pudpod lang ang swelas at sobrang daming binaong pagod bilang pasalubong.

Whew! Have to sign out na. Ms. Librarians cueing me na na my 1hour's up na.

See you on Job Fair! We'll be there on the 25th! :)

Kita-kits!

My-not-so-gloomy-day

Last night was one of my worst nights ever. At nalabas ko pa lahat ng galit ko kay Ms. Rozabeth Dizon. Damn was I mad.

Ang masaklap pa is Joy's raving mad din for reasons na I could not disclose kasi it's highly delicate to discuss. So there we were screaming at each other, naglalabas ng sama ng loob, trying to find sympathy pero what can we do? We're both negatively charged last night kaya salpukan lang kami ng salpukan.

Damn I thought I was fine. When someone tells you na your overdoing things tama na yung isa. Kasi rubbing it in deeply into my pores could cause major hypodermia.

Today. Here I am at the Central Library na naman trying to stall time kasi Ma'am Jo's not yet in her office. Have to go back pa around 1:30 or so para asikasuhin ang student loan ko. I was suppose to meet up with Cenz and Snooks kasi sabi ni JP there'll be a JOB FAIR sa SM North. I hope. Kasi sa apat na inapplyan ko sa UST Job Fair until now wala pang nag-rereply.

Damn.

Had a CD burnt para kay bestfriend. I do not know kung matsatsambahan ko siya sa review center pero whether I do or not, parang nacoconfuse lalo ako.

B and I are, well, I think, getting along just fine. Di pa rin siya nag-oopen up personally, pero nagiging ibang tao siya sa text. Sa text we could like talk about everything. Pero in person iba na naman siya. Damn.

This must really be a bad day. Try to count how many times I've said damn. That should be enough.

Nakaka-damn pa ang init ng araw. Damn.

Last night I was hanging out with Mikko sa tapat ng building. Kwentuhan, bonding. And then there was Ms. Rebecca Alarcon. Mahal na mahal ko yang babaeng yan kaya di ko maiwasang kamustahin araw niya. And damn was she damned. She was teary-eyed when I saw her. Siyempre, we are not just your regular set of friendly-friends, we are somewhere past that na hindi na dapat sabihing nandito na tayo pare. Yes, she did tell me what's up. Grabe I've never seen you this sad. Hay...lovelife talaga ng mga Aquarians. Sobrang gulo. Tignan mo ko. Si Cenz. Si Becs. Si Tony (friend ko: ). Hay...magulo talaga utak natin.

Last Saturday may napatay na naman sa P. Noval. I was wishing so hard na mamatay yang hoodlum na yan nang makita niya hinahanap niya. This was like the second time na in a month. Eto pa. First time na nangyari, magkakasama sina Cenz, Snooks, and Joy papunta somewhere. Buti na lang after nilang bumili ng something, nag-cab sila papunta sa dorm nila Cecilia. And then that day ata or the next day may sinaksak ng ice pick sa skull. Damn. Sa may Copytrade P.Noval ah.

And then nung Friday gumimik buong class. Magkakasama na naman yung tatlong babae. The next day nabaril naman yung isang Behavioral; Science student after ma-hold up. Damn. Double jeopardy.

Mamatay ka nang mamamatay tao ka! I swear!

The Purpose Driven Life

I was becoming more and more afraid of losing another person whom I really like.

Okay, so I 100% like this person and somewhere near 60% loving bestfriend.

Pagkagising ko I was afraid this might be forever...So I've turned to God. I told Him na I am confused with life and where I am going. And so thankfully my sis has a copy of the book, kahit maarte ako kasi I like hardbounds eh yung kanya soft, binasa ko na rin. I am at Day1. Mayang gabi ko pa gagawin yung Day2 kasi last day na ng exam today.

First day was rough. I was flashed by the reality of being someone on this earth according sa kagustuhan ni Lord. This again proved Beda right kasi according to the book, if you keep on thinking of your purpose this lifetime without consulting God, then you must be somewhere near being self-centered. Dito na daw pumapasok yung reasoning na, '...I thought ito na yung dapat purpose ko,.........ito yung magandang purpose na mapagseservan ko best...'

It stated a situation whereas if you are given a product without a manual, you will never fully understand its use. Only the designer himself could tell you what it can do. Same instance with God. We are the created, He is the Creator, so only Him can know what we are here for.

I was thinking, maybe love life is so not on my curriculum. Damn.

So I've prayed, asking Him what is my purpose. That I want to feel fulfilled. Kasi kahit anong sipag at pagod ang ibuhos ko sa isang bagay, I never felt contented. Why?

He proved na naman last night na He does everything for a reason.

Mikko.

He told me things no man has never ever told me before. He told me my weaknesses which lead me to come up with solutions as to how to improve myself for the better.

I do admit. I am self-centered. The part which I do not understand lang is why is it that all the time I do things naturally, it all comes from the heart, pero di ko napapansin na nagiging O.A. na ko. Everytime na lang I commit the same mistake. Pagiging over and under everything else.

Why?

Akala ko I am doing such a great job living life, di ko alam na nakakasakit na pala ko.

Demanding ba ko? Hmm...I prefer the term concern sa tao especially pag mahal ko. Unfortunately, over na naman ako.

Yes, some parts of our discussion was somewhat harsh, pero I do like it that way, and some part of it I don't get. Like being over with everything. All I know is, I only follow what my heart tells me to do.

Thank you Mikko for enlightening me.

I will be eternally grateful.

P.S. I have decided to keep my reflections from Day1 to 40 on my own. I was actually planning on posting it dito kasi I consider this a journal na rin. Well, a blog is an online journal naman diba?

So there.

For those who are also lost in life like me, I hope that you would take the time to find God. Kasi He will really listen and respond.

Teary-Eyed

Last Friday was one of my not-so-feel-good-day. Pero thanks to bestfriend the barely surviving day was in a way being cheered up. I texted bestfriend na I was going to chill at either Coffee Ex or Bo’s after my Finals exam on Stat. Boy was Stat bad. Extreme. The finals was sobrang hirap thank God mabait akong estudyante before kaya no need to worry na daw ako kasi for sure papasa na raw ako. Whew! In a way swerte si Madonna sa kin especially nung prelims namin sa Stat before kasi we got to answer the problem on our own pero parehong-pareho kami ng solution so nagtitinginan kami ng paper to check kung may mali kami na na-input sa calcu. Thanks Snooks.

Friday afternoon. Bestfriend texted me saying na pupunta sila ni close friend nila ni Mikko sa SM North. Oh boy was I excited. I happily texted Mikko na pumunta rin. Then he told me na sabay kami. Incidentally, I forgot about our class’ mini-celebration sa 1611. Gosh ininvite nga pala ko ni Japes last Monday or Tuesday na pumunta. KKB pero good enough. Kala ko manlilibre na ang mga naging Thesis of the Year eh. Anyways, so I hung out muna sa 16, chit-chat with classmates, tawanan blues, nagpahabol kaming tatlo ni Joy and Debsie sa lumilipad na ipis, then it just popped into my head, this day couldn’t get any better.

Eto na lahat ng instances eh:
1. I do know na babagsak ako sa exam ko sa Stat pero sinabihan ako ni Sir Funelas na no need to worry kasi my previous record are all good naman for sure mahahatak.

2. The Stat research slash mini-proj na I thought I would flank na naman kasi ang pangit ng gawa ko, pre-occupied with loving emotions kay bestfriend turned out to be okay. Actually, nirerecord lang niya ng nirerecord pero di niya binabasa. Whew! Life-saver! Kahit copy, paste lang and two paragraphs containing a maximum of 3-5 sentences per paragrap, umabot pa rin ako. The third paragraph was a big thanks to Sir Funelas. That’s that.

3. While at 1611, I thought, ‘gosh, I am going to miss this class. Nothing compares.’

4. Bestfriend was going to SM North. I know na ang superficial and somewhat egoistic ko na inisip kong pumunta siya dun for me. Which, until now hindi ko masagot. On our way nga to SM North Mikko was telling me na baka ganun nga ang plano…

Then there was complete silence. On my part.

Ewan ko pero this is my problem eh. Kasi ako marunong ako makiride sa tao pero may mga instances like this na pag ako dominated ng mga taong magkakakilala na natatameme ako kasi I feel do like I do not belong. Kasi look, they could even talk telepathically, ganun na sila kako-close, tapos ako I have no background pa sa kanilang lahat masyado except for some basic infos. Pero friends, don’t get me wrong. This is not a bad thing. Ganun lang talaga ko. You have to understand na baguhan pa lang ako sa group eh.

Then there was Magic Sing.

After finishing my maling order na Vanilla Frap kasi I’ve ordered for Choco Crumble, we went over to Mikko’s house. Lalo akong natameme kasi I do not sing in front of practically anybody. Well, medyo exaggerated pero, alam mo yun. Nakakahiya kasi I do not have a good one. The only place you’d hear me singing are at the bathroom, my room, and my siblings room while playing my CD’s super loud. The only time I’ve loosened up were during the ’September’ and ‘Rescue Me’ songs. Tapos I got a text message na super lasing na si Cecilia. So I’ve excused myself muna to check on my girl pals. Punta ko sa sala nila Mikko. Which, I’ve never imagined would trigger a something unbelievably horrific experience.

After my call kina Snooks I went back na on my seat sa dining area. Tinext ako nila Ana, Debs, Jape telling me how lasing Cenz was. Well, considering mahina kaming tatlo nila Snooks, a bottle of Red Horse could knock us down. Nagreply ako kay Joy kasi pinatawag niya ko sa house nila para ipagpaalam siya. When I was inputting the message ‘Yngat kayo’ whoa there it was! I did not see it pero my friends did. May tumakbo daw from the stairs to the sala na brown na creature. God was I freaked out kasi considering how matatakutin I am, silang tatlo sumisgaw din and nagkumpulan sa isang area ng dining while me, I was on another part. I was covering my eyes afraid na I might see something I might not like. Only then have I found out na their house was infested daw talaga ng supernatural creatures. Nangyayari lang daw yan pag may bagong dating sa house nila. Pero eversince dumami na ang alaga niyang pusa eh nawala na. Except today. Unfortunately they have no idea, until now, kung gaano ko katatakutin. Big time. From the time na minulto ko ng lola ko, hanggang sa mga super unusual dreams ko of death, both mine and others, considering my paranoia issues pa, damn am I a sissy for mumos.

And so we went home. Sa garage Mikko was about to show me his pet snake. Eh ang stupid front door nag-open by itself, so I freaked out. Napatakbo kaming lahat.

And then…I was lost.

Bestfriend was acting strange. No actually, that was not the time na I felt something indifferent sa amin eh. Sa Bo’s pa lang I could sense it na. Nung na kina Mikko na kami, bestfriends back was facing me almost the whole time. We barely talked. Kept on looking sa relo niya as if implying na gusto na niyang umuwi. We were not connecting. It was sad kasi I really like this person…the last two messages na nakuha ko sa kanya that night are:

San ka na?
House na. Patulog na. Exam pa kami bukas eh.

Until I’ve realized na this is another Bedan story.

I’ve texted bestfriend the day after. The only time na nagreply siya was mga tanghali na telling me to (TAKE NOTE) not text muna that time, maya na lang daw kasi busy siya with exams. Di niya ko maeentertain.

Impression. I was scared to death. One, never pa siyang nagtext ng super kumpleto ang spelling. And two, Di niya ko maeentertain. Double meaning? I don’t know

This is it. I could feel my over-analyzing self manifesting na naman as usual.

I want to get angry pero I do not have the right.

I want to demand for explanations pero simpleng texts nga lang like ‘musta?’ e walang reply.

Yup. It’s official. Another Bedan story na naman. Life is so cruel. I do not get it talaga.

Pero do not worry. I won’t go that far. Sana nagsasabi ka lang para di ako nacoconfuse sa ginagawa mo.

Pero why? One day you woke up at narealize na ‘Yikes! Na-in love ako kay Tim?’ I thought everything was going well na. Akala ko pareho na yung naiisip nating patutunguhan. All of a sudden, nawala.

Pati ba friendship dapat mawala?

What are you afraid of? Na saktan ako? O mapalapit sa kin kasi you finally realized na naconfuse lang senses mo?

Shocks please tell me.

Diba I’ve told you na before na I do not like speculating kasi I am a pessimist?

Please respond.

Kahit the friendship itira natin.

Lord please enlighten my friend. I want to keep the friendship.

And Lord, give me strength to face another painful experience.

Thank you…

Pauldyssimo!

Argh!

Yesterday was the second time I've seen 'American Idol' and Paula Abdul and Randy really crept into my nerves! The hell with those two? I mean, previous seasons they were okay, teasing and arguing with Simon everytime he'd give a testimonial about the performer's...well, performance. Pero this time, it's annoyingly..well, annoying.

I mean do they have to really exaggerate? Each time na Simon would open his mouth they'd start opening theirs na din overempowering his voice. Holler! Ever heard of respect?

It's annoying really.


On blogspot frenzies...

Wow, dumadami na tayo. How I wish each and every classmate of mine would create their own. That would be nice considering magkakahiwalay na tayo...isn't it that exams will last lang until Monday then wala na? Galing no. Parang kahapon lang we are sobrang petrified with Sir Buni's "kasungitan", Sir Dacanay's demanding prowess that we couldn't just ignore kasi if we do, patay, deadball sa isang plate. Hay...I'll surely miss those days na walang tulugan at sabay-sabay tayong nagka-cram.

Ei guys I have no idea how the hell you've laid out your LINK Section. Will somebody please tell me how?

Once again I have proven how inferior my technology prowess are and really it bugs me.

On student loan...

Nope. I am not afraid to admit. Actually one should be proud pa nga kasi we are not letting these challenges become a hindrance to our success.

So there. I am a certified Thomasian student who availed the Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo Fund which aims to aid students who are experiencing financial instability.

Damn you thesis ang mahal mo kasi. From research to printing, lalo na ang prototype kamusta naman?

This actually explains the henna on my pulse. It's a Chinese character implying 'strength.' Am I a strong person?

Trying.

I would like to give Ma'am Lei-Nobleza lots of kudos for being my guarantor! Kala ko di fifit sa schedule mo yung interview mo eh. Hehe... Thanks a gazillion!

On love...

Well...mahirap no. I do know what I'm feeling pero somehow..I am trying to fight it. Siguro the trauma that I have been through with B is sobrang intense that I couldn't recover pa until now.

Pero whoever you are.

143. :)

Take a lot of ingat.

And cure that God damn Kris Aquno Syndrome kasi I really wanna talk to you na on the phone.

FYI. Kris Aquino Syndrome is that extreme sore throat problem you get for talking too much. I have coined this word before kasi on one of Kris' show on ABS she told everybody na she has something something going on with her voice dahil sa sobrang kadaldalan niya kaya now she can't speak that much. I think she has to undergo an operation pa ata nun.

This happened to me nung na-addict ako sa phone kakwentuhan kung sino sino.

Pero TAKE NOTE. Graduate na ko diyan.

Symptoms: Mga 5minutes ka palang nakikipag-usap sa phone sumasakit na kagad throat mo up to the voice box to the larynx and wherever.

Seriously.

So there. Have fun friend.

Text na lang muna. :)