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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

In relation to my Rizal paper... I haven't edited this much so...GOOD LUCK!


Pepe's Viands: Jose Rizal?s Favorite Dishes and Other Stories
By Diana A. Galang

As part of its commitment to preserve and promote the country?s cuisine, and to commemorate Dr. Rizal?s 108th death anniversary, TASTE hereby offers stories (factual and fictitious) on his favorite food, and matters relating to the culture of the Philippine kaluto.

Favorite Dishes
During Rizal?s time, hotdogs and pancakes were yet unknown. But in his writing, sardinas secas (which is nowadays called tuyo) and a cup of rice, paired with hot chocolate (tablea de cacao, prepared as a hot drink), would comprise his breakfast.
Documents from the national archives show that, for lunch, our national hero used to enjoy Ayungin (prepared many different ways) with several plates of rice.
In addition, Rizal?s favorite viand was guinisang munggo, which he used to enjoy with his beloved Josephine Bracken (who learned to make bagoong as they lived in Dapitan during his exile).

Food And Thriftiness
Popular historians have written a lot about Rizal?s travels abroad, and one anecdote deals with his thriftiness when it came to food.
According to Jose Alejandrino?who was Rizal?s companion in Belgium?before checking in a hotel, our hero would ask the hotel?s booking attendant the cost of a room with and without meals. To conserve his meager funds, Rizal would always book a room without meals. This frugal but wise man would use the money he saved to buy alcohol, tea, and boxes of biscuits to fill his stomach and give him energy, sustaining him through sleepless nights while writing his great novels. Yet he willingly shared the biscuits with his roommate when the need arose.

Food And Sustenance
In one instance, because his allowance from the Philippines (usually from his Kuya Paciano) was delayed, Rizal skipped his meals.
But he did not want his landlady to know that he didn?t have money for food. So at mealtimes, he would go out and roam the streets of whatever foreign land he was in, and try to while away the time finding the inspiration to write his books. It was in this way that Rizal discovered the true face of different societies and cultures, and learned to appreciate the way of life in different countries, on streets he had roamed.
His diary shows that Rizal would usually look at restaurants, cafes, and bakeries. An hour or two after what was supposed to be mealtime, he would come back to his room with a proud face, never betraying a hint of being hungry.
Yet, Rizal was also able to enjoy the lavish cuisines of different countries, thanks to the invitations of affluent people who were amazed by his cleverness and skills. In many instances, it was because of his good writing that he was invited to many grand conventions.
Current scholars note that Jose Rizal, despite a stomach that was usually empty (especially during his struggling years), was full of knowledge that he used intelligently until his death.

The Chinese In Rizal
During the revolution, many Filipinos abroad craved native food, Rizal among them.
Pancit was easy to prepare, and Filipino migrants and travelers loved to cook it?hence, it was a favorite siesta food of Rizal. In addition, panciterias were popular in the country. There?s also the theory that he was part Chinese.
Based on the accounts of Alejandrino, Rizal would save enough money to cook quality meals. He always made sure to have a good meal on weekends, and to this end, he would buy ingredients
for pancit and cook it. In one instance, he had an excess of noodles, so he divided the sahog and stored it. Thus for three days, he and Alejandrino ate pancit.

The Magic Spoon And The Calamba Lechon Story
There is a story about Rizal?s magic spoon, which he used to bring with him every time he attended parties given by people he didn?t know very well.
It is said that Rizal believed that the spoon could neutralize all the poison in the food served to him. Rizal was said to have made the spoon himself from a horn given to him by an injured mountaineer whom he treated while he was hiking in the mountains near the Heidelberg.
This mountaineer claimed that the power of the horn came from the goat leader, distinguished from the rest of the herd by a single horn on its forehead. This goat leader would dip its horn into water to neutralize poison. The rest of the herd would wait for the leader to do this before drinking, as much of the spring water in the mountains of Germany was contaminated by the roots of poisonous plants and minerals.

Another story says that when Dr. Jose Rizal returned to the country from Europe, he was said to have been invited by his friends from Calamba to a picnic in Los Ba񯳮 The gathering at the foot of Mt. Makiling was very lively and Rizal performed some of his magic tricks. Because the party was given in his honor, he announced that he would contribute a lechon for his friends to feast on. He then went into the forest and returned with a boar.

People were amazed by how he caught and tamed the wild animal. But according to the story, the magic didn?t end there. Rizal touched the animal and it died. After a while, he asked for a pail of cold water, which he poured over the pig, and all the hair slid off. With his forefinger, he drew a line on its posterior, and all the entrails came out. He then shouted, "It is ready for dressing and roasting." The guests agreed that it was the most delicious lechon they had ever tasted.

Rizal And Cuisine
Rizal is best known for his political writings, novels, and poems emphasizing his stand for equality, and his anger at injustice during the time of the Spaniards. As he struggled for justice, he never failed to mention Philippine cuisine in his revolutionary novels, making extensive mention of the prevalent cuisine of the time in the novel Noli Me Tangere.


Among the items mentioned were coffee, tea, and salabat. Rizal also showed the cooking techniques and preparation for seafood through the character of Tia Isabel. In the Noli, Tia Isabel noted, "Ang ayungin ay para sa sinigang, ang bia sa escabeche, ang dalag at buan-buan para sa pesa? Iihaw ang banak na nakabalot sa dahon ng saging na nilamnan ng kamatis."

Even a cursory examination of the text clearly shows that Rizal was featuring the cuisine of his time; some scholars even took his details and images as symbols for a revolutionary statement. But that?s not important anymore; we are now free. And we owe it to you-know-who.

Gimmick-Schimimmick

So there I was at Off-the-Grill waiting for friends to fetch me kasi I have no idea where the hell Kolumn Bar is. Thank God they have a great band playing J.Timberlake music and all. Kung hindi..totally pissed na ko.

My furious prowess growing and growing and growing. So I went to Kolumn na alone. Hanap-hanap. Surprise surprise I was the first one to arrive. Yun pala wala kong inaantay na High School classmates and friends. So technically, I was alone. Well, considering Jon Dumb-jovi's on the screen, he instantly became my date.

The hell with his music.

Along came Mikko and friends. Itago natin sila sa pangalang Carlo and Dave.

So there. Thank you Mikko talaga for coming. Major life-saver.

Then maya-maya sina Cecilia and Jhoie naman. Whatta party! Ang saya. Then a friend of mine came along. Kinda cute pero there's this something something that turns me off eh. Pero sabi ko nga, you do smell good. :)

So my expected HS Reunion was ruined. I was raving mad talaga nung nakupo lang ako dun alone. Yung mga nag-invite sa kin sila pa di dumating. What's up with that?

Pero anyways, it's a blessing in disguise. I really can't blog down why due to explicit and unethical matters. Basta kung ano man yun, I am so happy.

I hope we are not making fools out of ourselves kasi I assure you na whatever I've said before sa phone are all true.

PLUS! Kasunduan nga natin, hayaan nating ang mga supernatural forces ang magwork for us. If we are meant to be I'm sure magiging tayo rin.

Stay as sweet as ever.

: )

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Timothy, your true color is Red!

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses.


Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously.

If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name.

You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in.

Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied.

Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment.

Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

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Bankrupt

Yup. It's official.

Yes we usually run out of money especially pag bayaran na sa school tuition. Pero this time's a different case. We deliberately have to cash out a big amount for my thesis. For printing ng books and presentation boards, to the sobrang mahal na model, to the cd burning, to the outfit, wah! Ang dami talaga!

So what to do?

Thank you Ma'am Aissa for this: STUDENT LOAN

So there. It took me three weeks to accomplish everything kasi with the pressure sa defense and all it is even possible to forget your mama's name, even your own.

Plus, a gazillion thanks to Ma'am Mary Florence Lei-Nobleza for trusting me via being my guarantor.

On thesis...

Tres. Did it haunt me?

Absolutely not.

Depressing at first kasi I did put 50% effort of my everything. Then additional 30% when defense was so near na.

Sir Buni yesterday was funny. Same thing with Sir Cunanan. We were like, connecting.

Unbelievable?

It has no sugar. :)
(Derived from the Pepsi Commercial just in case you have no television set at home.)

I was luring Sir Stephe to give us a slice of his Yellow Cab I-do-not-care-what-the hell-its-flavor-is-I'm-just-hungry-so-gimme-gimee.

The verdict? Siyempre naman. Charm and good looks. As Sir Butch would put it.

Sir Butch naman when I came across him that afternoon, I've asked him for my grade. He told me,

'...1.5 ka ata...plus 1.5 pa...'

So bale pag may nagtatanong for my grade, I was given two 1.5 which is equivalent to almost-being-a-thesis-of-the-year-Manchurian-candidate-pero-not-good-enough.

So there. I technically have two 1.5's pero the people at the office added the two so I got 3.0 and damn ang daming numbers.

Gladia's birthday...

I hung-out yesterday sa Gateway with my ol' pals. Pero I was super late kasi I have to help Snooky out with her thesis. So dumating ako dun round 8:20pm and they're all leaving at 9. Poor me. I've planned and organized the entire reunion pero I was there nung last minute na lang.

And yeah, nanlibre si Snooky ng Ice Monster Watermelon Teaser with Ube Ice Cream Add-on. (Kuripot!)

After that I was craving for Coffee Ex's Choco Brownies. So there I was alone. Jericho was there din as usual with some of his biola and gay friends. As for me, I was munching alone. Mukha na namang kawawa.

Pero whatta-heck.

Then nung nag-aabang na ko ng bus, L.A. called me up telling me na dadating siya.

So balik ako Coffee Ex only to find out na we are going elsewhere.

Surprise surprise ka pa eh the way to Novaliches leads to one place alone.

Gladia's.

So there we were, feeding on Leo's ala-Braso Cake.

Happy birthday Gladys Bernabe!

On B...

You really piss me off with your malaking ulo and an even bigger ego.

Pero besides the hell that we always go through I still wish you God's blessings on your defense this Friday.

So there. Wala munang away. Next week na lang.

Whew!

On gimmick this Friday @ Timog...

I've heard kay Gudo na it's going to be a HS reunion. Damn that's exciting. It's the re-birth din ng Power of Four.

Now that I've mentioned it, what's up with me and the number four?

My Gateway friends, apat kami.
My College bestfriends.
My HS kahang-out.

Lahat apat. So I am deliberately living the cliche, apat dapat.

What gives?

Hmm..beats me.

To Anapots and Kulit...

Things do happen for a reason. That's a fact. So kung ano mang nangyari nung defense week was all in accordance to His dance number. Plan pala sorry.

Sorry. We'll all get through this. Hindi kayo nag-iisa. :)

Kisses!!!

And Colletey, send me your blogspot site so I could crash you na din with kahihiyan with your drama queen attitude tulad ko.

So there.

Have a great life everyone.

GRADUATE NA TAYO!!!

WOO-HOO!!!

If you're graduating na din like us leave me a comment and details on how I can reach you para sabay tayo magsigawan sa tuwa.

Congrats everyone!

Monday, February 20, 2006

THESIS-sophical Stress Part II

So what's up naman with my thesis?

Whew! Finally! Tapos na. The thing is I do not know YET if I actually passed the defense or not.

Why?

So, here's the deal.

Two days before my thesis was awful, pero the day before, whew!

Major disaster.

I slept na naman over my tita's house to do my CADD and slide presentation, no sleep, no rest. Dire-diretso from printing ng tarp the next day, burn ng cd and all.

Exhausting? Eeehh! Try again!

So the night before my defense is now technically the worstestest night ever! It was like as if a time bomb was set to detonate in a matter of hours.

My mom was freaking me out pa. She keeps on telling me to do this, do that (in connection naman with my thesis), pinagsasabihan pa nga akong '...ba't kasi inaako mo lahat ng trabaho?'

Hell yeah! Finally somebody in my family who actually cares.

Pero maya-maya ganun din. She was all talk. More sympathy less corresponding action.

Right then and there I want to die. Quick pero of monstrous nature. Yung tipong di ko namalayang Freddie Krueger was behind me na pala taking the life out of me na then feeding my internal organs to piranhas.

I was so stressed out.

Damn.

Well, mom, what was it nga pala you're saying?

'...ba't kasi inaako mo lahat ng trabaho?'

Simple.

I've got nobody to support me.

Moral support is good but I need actual assistance.

On defense...

Pagkadating ko pa lang sa third floor, I saw Sir Buni, my advisor, and boy was he shocked with my model! The connection was unacceptable daw and that I should have shaved the plywood para the design would fit close to each other.

Damn gandang moral support from a supposed ally.

That made me lose my spirit.

Plus the fact na I have not practiced my presentation pa, I do not know what to say to each slide, etc. etc. etc.

So there.

I am officially dead.

PERO!

Who knew? I actually pulled it off.

Yes I have to do certain revisions and additions to the design pero all in all, (according to my classmates), pasado na pag revision.

Plus, I got three balls. (No malice please!)

One means you're dead.
Two is equivalent to tres.
Three, they'd tally your grades and get the average. (But still there's a possibility to get a tres.)

Whew!

Today I just submitted my revision. Pero I still have no idea what my grade is kasi our department heads not in. Tomorrow ko pa malalaman. Tough luck.

Lots of blessings.

O yeah I almost forgot, two days before my defense, I was blogging din I think, as always, a habit na. Tapos nung palabas na ko ng UST Library there was this first year Psychology girl who approached me. Guess what she said.

Jesus loves you.

Damn was I astonished! I think that was the day after my birthday and I was so depressed and all thinking na I am all alone in this world.

Sabay Jesus loves me. That was the bestest way to greet me on my birthday Lord.

I felt light then. The sun's ray was embracing me, it feels like God's actually kissing me on the cheek and is there to accompany me. I never felt so loved.

Parting words...

Thanks sa lahat ng tumulong sa kin.

Mang Ben
Ma'am Sunico
Sir Buni (even the sarcasm and pang-aasar and pananakot, thank you pa rin)
Sir Butch
Sir Castro
People from the talyer sa may Roces
My gal pals, Snooks, Cenz, and Jhoie
My mom
Tito Angel
Tito Romy
Tita Marking
Tito Eddie
"Apo"
And to those whom I forgotten, fear not for I will eternally be grateful even to those who has done none just to show my appreciation.

Thank you.

Jesus loves us all.

And lots of blessings.

Sunday, February 19, 2006



I need you like ice cream vendors need me.
They'd be nothing. Dead. Na-da. Downsizing. And everything.





We need a resolution.
And chocolat.

I definitely could not keep on doing this. Nakakapagod na.

So last night I had an intense moment na naman with B via text.

I called B up round 10-11 pm, wala sa house. So I got furious and worried. Damn. It doesn't matter kung may ka-meet siyang iba eh, the thing is I want to know if you're safe.

So there. No reply until 1 or 2am. I have to deliberately find a way para malaman kung nasan ka without people suspecting why, have to flood your inbox and call you up, pero wala eh.

Nursing night lang pala.

Lahat ng effort, for nothing.

You told me na meron ka ng iba.
Nakukulitan na ate mo sa calls ko.
Stories, stories, stories.

I know you B.


Kahapon wala, ngayon meron?

Today was the first time I made kulit sa house mo, wala ka pa nga sa house alam mo nang nakukulitan ate mo?

Sabi mo you're on your way home na tapos minutes later magoovernight ka na sa kabarkada mo?


Liar, liar.

Pants on fire.

Why haven't you ever answered this question?


You are the first one who made a move, gave me three days to think things over, gave me hope and all, pero when third day came, sabay laglag? Damn. Gaguhan o kalibugan?

Yup. It's official.

Go figure.

This is suffocating. I've tried dating, pero none seems to work. Tried meeting new people, wala pa rin.

All I have now is coffee and diversion.

With a slice of chocolate brownie on the side.


I love you B.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Gateway, by the way, highway.

Damn I miss my Gateway Pals, a.k.a. The Diyosas.

To Sheryl Loja, Myracof Pabilion, and John Conrad Victorino...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
MISS YOU!

Bakit ako nag-iisa?

WARNING: Content is disgustingly dramatic!

That was the second to the last message I got from B.

B told me to reflect and ponder upon the subject matter. So what happened ba really?

This February 12 is officially the worst birthday I've ever had.

Ok, so I want to spend the day with people. Friends and mates. Hop, shop, and chat, so I've texted all the GLOBERS on my phone group and waited ever so impatiently for a reply.

Result: Zero replies to a gazillion members.

So I've wondered, 'am I this awful?...'

'...isn't anybody happy na I was born on the twelfth of February?...'


It was depressing really. I was texting people na since the eve of my day pero still, same results. I never felt so lonely.

On my day I think the macaroni was trying to tell me something. Dad overcooked the pasta and it got super saggy, and super sticky for that matter. So at the end of the day I've wondered, 'the signs are all out pero I still dared not to listen.'

Why am I so hard-headed? I am open to the concept of change pero why can't I change that part of me? What is up with me?

Damn.

So there I was at Shangri-la Mall, then MegaMall, celebrating myself, Hooray, Hooray! Finally an unknown acquaintance texted me prompting me to meet up. So there I was at Odyssey, waiting for almost 3 hours, tapos no show. Damn, I know I'm not good-looking pero holler!

FYI: I've shaved well like I've never shaved before, PLUS! I've pressed my hair with a pirming iron!

For what?

A stood-up?

God whoever you are you just ate my entire celebration! I hope you burn in hell! Guess pa what the reason is. Eto na yung pinka-kadiring part eh.

My Stood-up Acquaintance had sex with somebody na nakasabay niya nung papunta na siya ng Odyssey.

How disgusting was that?

I'LL DITCH MY FRIEND FOR SEX!!!
HURRY WHILE SEMEN LASTS!

Damn you. Thanks for ruining my birthday.

So I've travelled back to Sm North hoping my pals would be there. Pero holler, eleven thirty or something, what do you expect? The counter was closed na nga pero I've used my charms and kakulitan na lang para makabili ng iced coffee. I was really mad at that time. More flooding, less drinking. I kept on texting and texting Stood-up's cel, I think the last count was around 200 messages. Damn I'm mad. Pero thank you Globe Unlimited!

When I've calmed down a bit I've texted B, asking if I am such a bad person.

It was masakit pero at least now I know. Well, actually I knew what my problem is pero the thing is I thought I was changing na, yun pala I am not so certain pala with the definition of 'self-centered.'

Yes, from B's mouth. I am self-centered and immature.

B told me to stop being so negative and rather start to think deeply, from within, why am i alone on my birthday?

Oh my gosh, I never ever felt like crying on public, pero yes, i've shed a tear. Two actually. So make that tears.

Am I that awful? I was looking around the people who are hanging-out din dun sa spot na yun. And so the difference between them and me? I own the table. All by myself. I could place all the stuffs on my bag to the counter without anyone getting bugged by my kadamutan.

Is this another premonition? Na I will be alone in the future? No one to share my life with?

Damn I hope not.

I'll try my best to change and fill that specific table on Coffee Ex with friends. Real one.

Siguro I was traumatized lang. Sick and tired as well of being the goody-goody of the batch, EVERSINCE.

It's hard being picked on, and criticized for being innocent and nice. Before I do not know how to say NO to anybody. Not until third year college.

The plates and the projects got me pre-occupied and unconsciously ate all of my social powers thus resulting to me, technically becoming a LONER.

So bakit ako nag-iisa? Am i narcissistic?

I beg to disagree. I am partly vain because I want people to feel na I am spending this much time trying to look good for them.

So be thankful I guess.

I am not doing this to attract, I am doing this to make you feel special.

Kasi honestly, I love you all.

I could not really define why I am alone. Pero once I've deciphered the secret of my Da Vinci, I'm sure you'll be viewing the entire story on this blog.

Happy birthday to me.

This came from an e-mail sent to me by Snook Dogg. Hope I've edited everything right. Enjoy! :)

WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?

Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate, also in line with Celtic astrology. Then send it to all your friends, including the one that sent it to you, so they can find out what tree they fell from, but don't forget to change the subject line to your tree.

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Haze lnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to De c 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

YOUR TREE (in alphabetical order):

Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not verypassionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

THIS IS ME:
Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious,healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
THE VERDICT: 90% True.


Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings,hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot besatisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, ! loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) - extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusuallovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to,emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean towardphilosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm , cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingeniousstrategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, ve ry empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

What kind of tree are you???? Leave your name and answer on COMMENTS or on my TAGBOARD. Tell me din kung totoo.

Hope you had fun!

Saturday, February 11, 2006

O well, there goes my birthday.

Will somebody please make me feel better?
Not even an order of Brownies Overload would make any difference.

Damn this day.

So I do admit, lately I've been so ever obsessed na naman with B. So what diba? As if. Only a guy with the biggest ego ever would react and be paranoid over the subject matter.

So please B, stop commenting. Kasi there's no possible way na you could ever make this Panther stop.

I mean, why do you have to text me to stop sending messages that has butterflies and kisses on them?

Damn that's ego man. Big time.

And this day, the worst! I have to face my advisor and another professor, present my thesis (practice defense lang), wait in line for hours, walang kainan, and walang matinong tulog.

Damn this day talaga! I hate it!

Tapos I have to edit the entire presentation pa kasi some parts are too much, while some lack a lot.

Double damn!

Happy birthday to me!

Shi-a-t-su!!!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Dangerously In Love
Beyonce

I love you.

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world.


I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me.


And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side.


Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you.


Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love.



So bad to be true.

It was awful. So far the second worst dream I've ever had in my entire life. (P.S. First was the time when I dreamt na I was dead and nobody could hear me. I was crying the entire morning pagkagising. It's hard really. I was screaming on the top of my lungs pero no one could hear me. So I turned to a teacher I had nung HS who could commune with the dead. So there.)

I dreamt na I was having a trip to Pampanga with my family. I think it was the celebration of my late lola and lolo's wedding anniversary. Kasi they were both there and kissing and so happy eh. Probably the second or so time na I wasn't scared after seeing her in my sleep. Later on I saw B pababa sa stairs, so happy, so fresh, as usual. Parang parating bagong ligo. And so I texted B saying na I am there din at the same place, and if B wants we could go back to Q.C. ng sabay since my place is not so far from B's naman.

I think may ka-EB siya dun eh. I could remember B was with some of his friends and classmates.

Tapos I found myself on a highway. (Which I suppose is normal naman in a dream kasi usually you would remeber excepts lang from the whole story.) I was texting B for hours and hours pero no reply. So I got scared na kasi the commoners were flooding na sa isang spot sa highway. They told me na a certain somebody got hit by a car, pipi and katawan.

Damn I was freaked out. So I searched and searched everywhere. I asked some people pa nga to help me look for my friend. I was screaming B's name na. Nowhere. Next thing I know, I was in a car with some of my relatives on the way to a funeraria. I was crying na from that point on. I was so scared to accept the fact that B left me, for good. Well, ngayon hindi na kami magiging kami, pero death...whew! Might as well kill me na din. Unbearable to the highest level.

I went inside the funeraria. Green interior. Velvety feel. The front entrance for B's spot is sobrang liit. Sobrang liit na tipong if I enter directly I wouldn't fit not unless I'd turn sideways. So I went in the other door. Which was far more comfy to enter to. And viola, there was B. There are clippings of articles from a newspaper indicating what happened. I didn't bother reading kasi I was all too disappointed and heart-broken to see the love of my life lying in a kabaong. It was totally freaky.

Through the glass panel, I still find B so nice. Mukha pa ring bagong ligo, which B shouldn't be worrying at that moment kasi you're practically dead. It was gruelsome. Hindi siya pipi kasi B's body is still intact.

Pero from the part where I found out that B was dead, to the part where I last remember, I was so sober. And sad. And desperate to die as well. So pathetic. Unfortunate. Disastrous. Everything. It was the worst day of my life.

When I woke up I texted B in pronto. Pero until now di pa nagrereply. I know you are safe, pero I want you to watch out. Maybe you think I am not taking this seriously, pero I am. I frantically realized how much I love you and that I couldn't bear to live without you. Yun siguro ang message ni Lord.

'Why give up on love?'

Dear Lord if this is your way of doing things then You better do it right next time.

Do not be so harsh.

I am sure You have the ful knowledge on how much I love that person.

The dream, an ultimately bad joke.

And B, I've realized na eventhough I can't have you na, I'll always be around to care. I will not make kulit or papansin, pero promise me lang na you won't die anytime soon? Kasi imagining you gone forever is like me living a lie, pretending na life's all good pa rin and it will get better and better everyday.

Kasi life without you is like life without air. So hard to breathe.

I love you.

Pero I suppose you wouldn't ever find out na I do. Pa rin.

Pero I do.

And I respect you telling me to stop na.

I lied when I told you na napapagod na ko kakaantay.

I never will.

Pero please don't die yet. I want to see you grow pa.

I love you.

Sunday, February 05, 2006


I am such a disease.

On Globe Unlimited promo...

Thank God it'll stay F-O-R-E-V-E-R! I drafted a drama blog implying how I felt about Globe's promo being over and damn, was I dramatic! I never felt this passion over something so simple. O siguro I was desperate lang kasi I do not like SUN's services...hmm...I suppose.

You could choose from 15, 25, and 50 peso load denominations to enjoy the said Unlimitext. So there. Text lang ng text.

Anyways, guys, especially Globers and the staffs and people of Globe, I LOVE YOU ALL!

***This portion is brought to you by Globe. Globe. Connecting people.



On endorsement...

Need to ask? I prefer being asked kung tuloy ba ko sa defense ko.

Kasi it's a big fat YES.

Do you know the reason why I wasn't endorsed?

Mali daw ang exploded view ko. The thing was I only extruded the object sa AutoCADD and forgot na there shouldn't be any hidden lines kapag exploded view. Tough luck huh?

This really lead me to believe Ma'am Sunico's famous words.

"Little details could lead to big disaster/s."

Well, not exactly what she said pero the idea is the same.

Damn those freaking hidden lines. Damn.

On my birthday...

Again, need to ask? Even without the anticipation I am a thousand and ten percent sure na on that day I'll be working on my thesis. Damn why does my birthday have to fall on such a monstrous week. Too much pressure I tell you. A situation so tough even Charlie's Angels couldn't handle.

So what to do on my birthday? Hmmm...probably coffee trip with matching Long John Session, a.k.a. Country Style's SnoBoard Flavor.

While reading my thesis book of course.

What do I want for my birthday?

Well now. Below is my checklist.

Tim's Checklist of
Birthday Wishes

__ Big, big, big Chocolate Cake
(NO SHARING!)
__ Coffee Crumble Ice Cream
__ Maong Coat from Bench
(Around P900)
__ Extra money for gimmick.
__ New set of clothes.
__ Plus accessories!
__ More aviator shades.
__ More pink stuffs.
(Even if the color's so last year pa)
__ Peace of mind.
__ World peace.
(Seriously)
__ A place for the aged, street kids, and the
homeless.
__ Be entitled as a NO CRIME COUNTRY.
__ My own charity for the aged,
and for the kids.
__ To pass my defense.
__ Love life
(Hopefully B pero I would love to believe na I am open to other suggestions)
So there. I also accept cash if you couldn't find me the stuffs stated above. I am very much flexible.
Happy birthday to me.
Itago na lang natin ang exact date sa February 12, this coming Sunday, 2006. So don't tell.

In Loving Memory of my nag-iinarteng friend.... Ms. Rosabeth Joy Dizon



Picture na complete ang tropa. Next complete shot natin: 2nd Birthday ni J.E. :)
Red Horse Trip! Halata naman kung sino umiinom kasi bukas ang bottle. Yung dalawa hindi!