Forbidden Love

Two terrible stories to tell. Let me start with the lighter one. One that I thought was excruciating enough to make me deliryo and fantasize about me living with this persona in a perfect world.

Remember remote? God, everyday I try to fight the feeling and the urge to tell how I really feel, pero I just can't. My, oh my...I struggle each day thinking what remote would say pag nagpakatotoo ako sa kanya. It's not that I'm torpe and all, pero the thing is I really don't wanna lose you. I've lost a lot of peeps na for doing what I normally do, paka-taklesa and pasaway, and really I don't want that to happen again. ever. Especially with you. You and your pinsan makes me feel like I really belong in this world, na I have a purpose, you give me inspiration and determination to live each day to the fullest not minding what the others would say basta lagi ka lang pakatotoo...And for that, I'd rather die than to lose what we have...Or to lose what we have because I really wanna be somebody else more than just being your friend. Damn this is so pathetic.

After putukan last night I went over to their place. Brought tinapay with cheese & ham, dad's famous ube and my therapeutic food, not because of the lasa but because it simply releases my tension pag ginagawa ko siya, refrigerator cake, which btw cost me around P400.00. Impossible? FOR REAL! I've spent a lot for the Oreo, M&M's, daming graham crackers both in choco and honey flavor, the disposables na I bought for giveaways, and yeah btw, I made a giant pack for our family, and three minis for friends. So there. I'm really mayabang and proud kasi it's the first time na I've spent a lot for a cake that doesn't even involve cooking. Anyways, there we were. It was actually sweet kasi inantay ako nung three of my girl pals before eating their pancit eh, which btw is ke sobrang sarap and! Remote made it himself. By tsamba pa. Haha...Anyways, hindi talaga sila kumain nung niluto niyang pancit hangga't di kami dumadating. So there. Really had fun. Kahit nakatunganga lang kami the entire night. And I enjoy chatting with remote's pinsan at night. Wala kaming tigil as in! I am assuming two hours before sleeping is devoted to chit-chatting. It was all good.

Then I left around 9 or 10am. Natulog sa bahay then texted them inviting them over sa bahay ko naman for a change. So there we were. Tunganga na naman. I just love seeing you and being beside you. I know your not feeling anything more than friendship when you're with me, pero believe me, I'm more than willing to straighten up pag naging tayo....If magkakaganun man...

God....

Second entry on my forbidden love bloggy is about the two most important people in my life. I really can't tell who they are kasi it's really private and too personal, pero I'm sure you'll get it. I am fearing na they're at the verge of separating...Everyday mag-aaway...My god tipong pati nung New Year's Eve nagsisigawan sila...At first I thought menopausal or mid-life crisis stage lang yung isa...pero no. It's way more serious than expected. I think it's about them, and a third party. What really made me wonder kanina was when I was asking for this person's cellphone and his partner made a senyas not to make pakelam na. My god, that so indicates a somebody diba? Kasi why won't you lend your cellphone kung walang something-something? It's crazy, I never thought this could ever happen! My God this is crazier than the forbidden love that I have for remote. Kala ko remote's such a disease na, then came these two. Plague ito mga bro! It's crazy...

What a way to start the New Year....I am still hoping for a great one though.

Beda's birthday's coming up. JANUARY 3. Happy Birthday you. Hope you're happy and all. I'll always remember you....

Welcome 2007...Even if ang papangit na ng panimula mo...I still welcome you.

Have a great new year readers, friends, whoever...