Happy new year guys!

Another year, another year.

God this is the roller coaster year of my life. From leaving Home Team, going to Gateway, to Tower then back to Gateway, grabeng whirlwind ang changes. And I do hope that thru the course, I have made a name for myself na. And I am wishfully thinking na this year, things would even get better and brighter for me. Kasi whatever and wherever I am right now in my career, I am sobrang enjoying. Pero sometimes lang talaga, you have to lose yourself and change directions to find your way back.

And I do hope na when I find my way back, whatever it is that I've left would still be the same pieces that I have always known them to be.

Happy New Year. Have a great one. :)

I wanna cater to you.

One of the dreadfullest days of my life, the first week of January. January 3 to be exact. Haha...I remembered that day after Christmas when I had a date with B sa Iceberg, and you do not want me to pay. Laging K-K-B. Funny. Kasi you do not want that feeling of utang ng loob. I had an Oreo Ice Cream, you had a glass of Strawberry. I will never forget. I gave you this stupid wallet na binigay sa kin ng kapatid ko pero I could not use with a stamp pad that says Capricorn. Haha two years and I still could recall it like it was yesterday...

And what about that time na I told you na I need help sa thesis ko and I really have to meet you sa kanto ninyo pero in reality I was gonna give you a pan of ube that dad made, plus suman. You said thanks then I went with you sa barbershop in SM North. Top floor I forgot what's the name. Two years, pero still in my heart...

I really want you to be happy. Even if I did not become a part of your so-called life.

I really miss you...

Come on over.

Me in love?

I wish. Haha... :) I want to be, pero I always end up loving people who can't be loved and the likes so what do I do? Nope, I didn't try to avoid them, in fact I've flirted some more and made myself believe na I can get them. Why?

I have no idea. You tell me.

Sometimes I want to die.
Sometimes I just want to move on.
Sometimes I want to believe na love is asexual.
And that love will come on over...

But then I go back to part one. Dying. Three years of hoping B would come back, pero all I get is heartaches...and the fictional life that true love does exist.

I wish I am a psychic and that I could transmit thoughts into people's mind and let them know how I feel. No how I really, really feel. I always protrude visual communication towards everybody na I am all good, and always will be. Pero deep inside I am hurting. And all because of that stupid Cupid.

Sometimes I want to kick somebody so hard it would make Cupid's butt go soaring 'til kingdom come.
Sometimes I want to kick myself so hard so that I could wake up to this reality.
Pero most times I only hope for one person and one person alone to kick me hard, and give back your love in exchange...or as we did have.

If only B knows.

All I want is you.

Addict ako.

I am crazy over youtube I swear I can't stop posting all of my favorites I swear. Grabe bakit ngayon ko lang natutunan to? Gosh I sobrang need Tarzan101 I swear.

Anyways embedded are some of my favorite Basement Jaxx hits like Romeo, Red Alert, and some Spice Reunion clips. I am loving it! :)

This you gotta love.

Another song on my fashion dreamoir.

My Ultimate Love.

Someday I'll have a fashion show playing this song forever and ever and ever.

Ho my Lord more VIDEOS!

I love this song reinvented by Mel B. (aka Scary Spice and Timbaland)

More Spice?

My god their voices have really evolved. And I am sobrang loving youtube.com. Iz the zhiet! :)

See this!

This is really funny! I am currently hooked to youTube.com and it's really a lot of fun pala. Har! See this! :)

This is KADIRI to the MAX. (No Sugar :)

Ho my Lord I'm dilemmanizing a dilemma I swear. I know this is gonna be sobrang kadiri and jologs pero who f*cking care (ako...konti) Anyways, Amang told me kahapon na he has a friend selling iPhones MADE IN CHINA worth P4,500.00...imagine, iPhone. And I am this close to being tempted. I wasn't paying that much attention to the news kasi before regarding China made phones, how bad could they get ba? Extremely? My god....Or siguro I'll save up na lang and not trade my Walkman phone noh? Yeah..siguro ganun na nga lang para kahit masira man siya, di pa rin ako nagsisi binigay ko W710i ko.

Damn China for copycatting everything they see.

Mr. Alcoholic.

Who me? Fafatayin ko nagshabi niyan! Humanda kahayo! *HIK!*

Har! Seriously I think I am on that path. And I could not manage to be there kasi I am already growing, and I don't want to gain anymore. I think me being a loner provokes my alcohol intake. It's my anti-depressant. It makes me believe na somewhere out there there's this somebody who'll be there for me. (Yeah right, para ihatid ako sa sobrang kalasingan.)

Anyways can't wait for my next party. After my 10-gallon hat comes my crown. Bwahaha! I love costume-y outfits talaga.

Impossibleism and parties.

I could not believe na it's been like 3years na since I've met this special person and until now I couldn't stop thinking about the things that happened on our week long na pagkakakilala. I of all people knows better na if you fall in love, matatalo't matatalo ka. Main reason why I chose being a pokpok na lang instead of being the partner you'll love forever, and then what, in the end magiging desperate housewife ang drama ko? No way. I'd rather keep this singleism for life and have the bestest time of my life. The next time na I'll find my boo, I'll definitely be the first to laugh, and the last to cry.

Come on, fall? In love? Impossibleism. Imagine being attached to one person for the rest of your life. HA! Patawa...

Deep down inside I know na in a way I am denying all that I am feeling. I've poisoned my mind na I choose to be single kasi it's way better than ever. Getting to meet people everyday ng walang pumipigil, getting to do what you want to do ng hindi dapat nagpapaalam especially me na sobrang spontaneous, I will never trade those to changing my status. But then again, there's B. B who up to this date reminds me na this world could be a better place. B who taught me na not everybody is what or who I think them to be. And I thank you for that. I really do wish one day I'd still, still, still get to meet you ulit. I wish I could fool myself even better na that dream of mine could still be achieved. You and me in perfect harmony.

Last night I went to 2Christmas parties, both got me drunk so hard up to this time na I am burning my emotions I could still linger on the taste of alcohol rumbling inside my veins, and don't even get me started on the hilo and sakit ng ulo. Thank god for spelling analysis on blogspot it made my life a hell lot easier especially ngayong hindi ako makatingin ng diretso, everything's sobrang doubled. I went to Rustan's Gateway's Christmas party (took the advantage of going there na kasi I am sobrang sure sa Summer na naman mangyayari ang Christmas party ng VMD due to tons and tons of work). It was held @Joey's along Araneta and I had a lot of fun. I get to be who I want to be. Was not suppose to go there pero when I've heard na they are gonna give a Liz Claiborne bag for the 'Most Outrageous Dressed Person of the Night', ay pota ibang usapan na yan especially now na I need to give a lot of gift for my family. Went there with this extra gigantic striped rose on my left chest and a super colorful 10-gallon hat. And yeah, no doubt. Walang ibang contender. Sobrang unanimous decision. Bwahaha! Yabang! Anyways, I did have fun.

Fun except for the part na everybody has a date except me. And it sucks. If they are not married, they'd be there with their gf's/bf's, and the next in line are the pangit people who can't get a partner. Ho my Lord ayokong masama dun I swear I'm gonna die...Hindi naman siguro ako ganun kapangit I swear....

Then comes Aruba Bar in Tomas for my Christmas party with my collegemates. Supreme fun pero super late na kong dumating to the point na kakaunti na lang sila dun and pinagsasarahan na kami ng bar. Pero the bar people was really nice. Plus the fact na they think na I'm somebody who seems like somebody. Anyways I've missed them all. A lot. Sana one time paggising ko estudyante ulit kami. That would be the day. Sana 4th year college ulit, the year I've met B....

Margaritas @ Pier 1.

Had a mini-reunion with my gal pals, sila Donna, Ja-nice, Yanyan, and Donna's friend that I am really fond of, Gracey. Sobrang bading siya and sobrang funny talaga, and sobrang pareho kaming pokpok. It was her and me lang and bumaba sa bar (last na si Jans dumating) kasi nobody seems to want to fuh-lurt and dance with a bottle of San Mig in one hand. And yes, as expected, tinamaan na naman ako ng kalasingan. Although it was mild lang ha. I even managed to (after partying all morning) do A HELL LOT of naughty stuffs only I know, and still reach home in one piece. Not to mention me having to kaladkad a paperbag of Rustan's and Topman that I have recently purchased.

Went there around 1 and ang weird, the party was suppose to start pa lang then pero nag-uuwian na yung iba. And the CR creeps me out everytime kasi guys are lined up sa toilets peeing talking about the girls (and the girls are sorted out per school) na they want to 'sibak.' They are sobrang barako. I will never forget the line: "Pare para namang may ayaw sa ating sumibak ngayong gabi diba?'


Pokpoks.

Anyways I still had fun. Went home alone pero at least I was able to bond with my old pals and new ones. LJ was the only one I could recall, and Mayang. Donna's bestfriend.

Hay...good times, good times.

And then I began doubting myself.

I do have a bold and very brave fashion sense but then I began asking myself, does my style fits me?

I could not imagine people filling and fitting in my shoes, from the red pants, to the leopard print shoes and the neon shirts, the blings, everything. I do consider them all unique...but then again, do I only make myself look ridiculous? Hmm...midlife crisis' hitting me early this lifetime. I could still see myself when I become a lolo na I'll still be wearing the pearls that has been turned into a suspender, the pink shoes, the vests, lahat. But will somebody please lease please let me know....

How do I look?

Tim, the Dreamer.

As our nearing departure from the place that I use to call home, I already am having ambitious ambitions on what could be shifted from my life na rin along with the shifting of the moving away movement.

I have every plan of starting my fashion business right where we are going to move. The house has 5 rooms, there are like 3 of us and one master for my folks, so basically there's a spare room which (and my mom totally agrees with the idea, sarcastic pero still she said yes thinking '..here we go again Mr. tim the Dreamer..') I plan to transform into my very first boutique. I want to study fashion design for a while yung mga tipong ilang months lang and voila you're done, then buy my stuffs and start making clothes for men that are totally...me (or in layman's term: out-of-this-world, or as Ate Virg of Fashion Accents has said: '...Tim..you're sooover talaga...'). Of course for ladies din, pero I do not see myself making dresses. Ewan ko it's so not me. I do love cocktails though.

Anyways I plan on painting the one wall in leopard, the other in neon green, the other in zebra, and the last one in super hot pink. Haha...I really am ambitious. Let's see where my dreams take me. If I have to loan a huge amount sa bangko so be it. I will get this thing going and I aint gonna stop til I get what I want.

Thiz iz really it.

Reunions. And hell.

We're having a reunion right this moment which is sobrang impromptu kasi my tito flew in from states and is about to leave in a few. I was expecting a really small one, yung tipong living room lang namin ang magiging venue, pero no, again the Lagman Association has once again proved na ang laki ng population namin. Thank heavens for three bedrooms and a big garage or else, malamang matulog ako sa kabilang bahay, which is so not me.

Anyways I have to get out of the house or else everybody will get to have the Tim Experience, very masungit, sobrang not laa-ving it. Deprived of all my golds. Good thing I was able to control my irritation kanina and hey, I was kind enough to allow people inside mi casa (a.k.a. my room).

Aargh!!! Main reason why I hate reunions. Mostly are fakes, mostly are wannabes, then some are naggers and braggers lang. Good thing I have Michelle. Whew! Families. Why do I have to have a complicated one.

Damn.

The Holiday Inn Experience

Ho my Lord the experience was both masaya and sobrang nakakapagod at the same time. PREQUEL!

Ms. Jing (our S.O.M. @ Rustan's Gateway) has tied-up with Holiday Inn for a Rustan Grand Sale and they've been so nice to give us three function rooms, one stockroom, one villa, and free food for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. So fastforward....

Amang was supposed to come with us to Pampanga kaso unfortunately nagka-sudden event pero mini lang naman din, while we're having a grand sale at The Holiday Inn, may midnight sale din sa Rustan Gateway (pero siyempre 20% off lang sa store, sa hotel hanggang 70-80% pa). So beat that ShoeMart. Anyways pagdating namin medyo masaya pa kasi we get to see every freaking item for sale and I was lucky enough to grab a piece of Heatherette pants (yes, they're for ladies pero to hell, I got a size 9 and it's better than buying tiangge's skinny jeans), an FCUK belt that has been slashed from P1,950 to P100, and a Heatherette leggings (na I'm using as boxers). anyways the leggings are really cool, it's a monogram of stars in different color and the base color is HOT PINK. Ang cool, sabi nga nila it's sooo me. I was suppose to buy this FCUK leather bracelet from P1k plus to P100.00 and I was suppose to give it to a certain somebody, somebody, pero nawaaallaaaaa...I swear I'm gonna kill whoever stole my coolies from me I really hate it. I'm gonna die na talaga kasi I swear nandun yun sa paperbag ko...It should be cursed from now on...whoever wears it has to die. Or at least kuko nila sa wrist na pagkakabitan nun..or something. I'm really gonna die na!!! I want it back it's suppose to be a pasalubong....

The adventure slash experience at The Holiday Inn was of course spiced up by my ka-edads (finally may nakasama rin akong mga bagets very much unlike the typical day @ work with oldies) namely Manix, Carmela and Elin. Elin was really funny. I thought the babaeng baklas myth was just a myth pero no...she did prove to me na they exist. My god...isa siyang nymph. Very bakla. Manix on the other hand is....hmmm..Manix-y. Yeah I do admit we do cross each other's blogs pero we haven't had that quality time pa, pero I did enjoy his existence. Yun nga lang ang koooolllleeettt!!!!! Sobra he's gonna give me a heart attack! Para kong nagkaroon ng sampung rascals screaming up and down the hall that I really wanna wreck. Wreck the halls ang drama not deck. Carmela was the usual Carmela na may moments. May moment na tahimik, may moment na nagbibiro, may moment na parang baliw. She reminds me of me...may sariling mundo. She must be an Aquarian...hmm...have to ask her.

Anyways, if not for them my Holiday Inn experience must be a BIG BORE. I miss them already. Despite the pagod and literally walang tulugan for two days, I had fun. For real. Hope this happens again. And again. And again.