New site.

I am moving to a new home.

houseoftieom.multiply.com

See ya! :)

I am so full of drama.

Million dollar question:

"Tim, aalis ka na ba talaga?"

Yes. And more yeses. I have been asked this question a gazillion times, and yes, the answer will be and forever will be, the same.

The bigger issue is when, not the question that I already have the answer to. My bosses were kind and helpful enough giving me a million and one advices, and yes I am taking it all seriously. Kaya nga nandito pa ko. I am still patching my watak watak na dreams, not until I am uber ready to take off will I leave this lovely job of mine.

Am I tired?

Everyday.

Everyday whining is so not healthy. My skin is already going against me. Thankfully my face is a no-pimple zone, and I thank Pond's for that. My emotional aspect is seriously dropping to zero, and my IQ, my god nahahawa na sa masasamang ispiritu.

?????

I really have to fast-pace everything. It would hurt a lot not seeing everybody and doing what I love to do. Pero I know na anywhere I go, my V family will always back me up. I love you guys. :)

My Dream Book, with Snooky.

Yup, this is one of 'em. I have my burn book, and I have my dream book. This is where all my dreams, plans in life, things I want to do and achieve, all of that drama, it's all here. Anyways, latest update, me doing what I do best. Papampam. Ewan ko I must be rally diseased, or as Ms. Monch said, abnoy talaga ko.

Piece per piece, all by self-study, I am trying to build a dream I had since I was young. Yes, I am rushing everything, pero I'm being careful din at the same time. I don't want to fail. Hell no, no room for that. No room din for distractions. Basta right now all I am focusing on is achieving things that will help me become the Great Timtastic.

How?

No idea.

Tira-tira! Emmo of the month. Happen what should, this is why I am really planning everything so ever carefully. I am in ways touched and moved by comments of certain people, like (hindi ako nagyayabang) how truly gifted with my hands, they're like Midas, turning everything into gold, that I have a very bright, end of the tunnel moment as per Boss Sunday which, coming from a person you hardly know, means a lot, how creative I am in doing what I do best, magpapampam, and a hell lot more, anyways, they are really motivating, it sucks you out of the darkness period and gives you a certain perspective in life. It drives you. Very much. And it means a lot how much people gives such nice comments on my works. How I wish I could be the best, and that I will strive hard to achieve.

God I hope everything turns out excellent. Better than great, better than what I expect. Better than what the poeple expects.

Fasizzle-dizzle

I am today wearing the cabbage rose. Ewan ko, it was raining so hard last night, Frank was really depressing I wasn't able to go out talaga, not to mention me having to cancel my haircut appointment because of the stoopid brownout and uber heavy rains. It's really stoopid.

Anyways back to the rose, I could not sleep well last night and all I could think of is that I have to go to work today with a humongous rose on my chest.

And I did.

Well, not as humongous as we'd expect it, pero big pa rin. The first one I did was big, Tarzan X big. Imagine pinning a rose on Godzilla's chest, ganun kalaki, pero siyempre I was confused. Be the self-proclaimed fashionista that I am...or give myself a little bit frenzy pero still reputable look sa office.

And so I ended up wearing the second rose I did, the tolerable one.

As per Daria, Kuya Roy noted that I am so gay when I dress up.

F**k up. :) Who cares.

I must be out of my mind.

I am.

I am planning on leaving a place I consider my home.

Crazy huh?

somebody kick me hard in the a**. Cause I suck.

Hoo-mama.

I am really doing it. Unbelievable.

I am not sure of what I am doing, I am not sure if this is the bestest plan ever, pero I know one way or the other I can make it work. I have never been more afraid in my entire life. Ho god I am more afraid than fear itself. And really right now I do feel like the former kid who gets to be bullied around by the big, tough-looking guys, and all I can do is cry. I cry a lot. Because I fear, because of loss, because I choose a different path, but most importantly, because I have a lot of guts to do things that are most of the time, crazy.

Blame my spontaneity.

Damn it. It sucks. I am such a stupid person.

Some more time to do what I've got to do. Ends do mean new beginnings.

This is saddening.

Damn it, of all the people I could view on my frenzy list it has to be you pa. Funny thing is that I've clicked on a Beyonce youtube and it started playing that stoopid, stoopid 'Still the one I want to....' (Stoopid Shania Twain for writing that song).

Reality is, I still wanna be with you B. I miss you a lot. More than life. More than what I've got right now. Stoopid, stoopid love. It sucks bigtime. I must admit you're looking prettier than the usual. Made me miss you even more. Stoopid goodlooking people makes me miss you more and more everyday. Ho sheesh this sucks.

I still don't understand whatever happened while we were sleeping. No idea at all how it could end this quick. Stoopid me for pushing people to their limit. Stoopid me for pushing you to be somebody you're not, stoopid me for believing na I could create a difference, even stoopider for me to believe you are the one.

Stoopid, stoopid, stoopid.

B, if you could only read this, all I want is you. Having you is like being in Nirvana, I need not to look any further for anything else. I could have been a better person. We could have compromised. We could have reached for our dreams.

But now, for the four years or so that has passed, you still have the power to instantly make me cry. Cry a lot. And a whole lot. And it sucks. I'm such a stoopid person. I could never love anybody else but you. Please come back...

I know I can.

I can do it. :) I'll show the world what I've got.

I know I can do it. :)

Power of positive thinking.

Tantrum of the week.

Mantra everyday.

I know I can do this.

Goodbye to some, hello to my dream! :)

I can do it.

I'm moving on.

Things are about to change in a few months. I do not know how long it will take pero as of last week I am already starting to patch up my dreams, piece per piece. I have no absolute idea on what I am doing pero I do believe I can do it.

God have mercy on me.

I am risking my life for this one. Thanks guys for all the support. :) You guys give me strength and confidence like no one has ever before.

Love you all.

Kabaklaan.

1 in the morning sa office and I really have to upload this. Italian Festival's coming to Makati ladies and gents and I hope hindi kami magfail. (Well anyways, most of the time we don't, or kami lang ang nakakaalam. :)

What you think of the graphics? My new desktop pic. Lemme hear what you have to say.

You must be my everything.

One of 'em days. Stupid days when I can't seem to get over one stoopid emotion. This is really depressing. Must have eaten something so bad I felt like this the entire day. Ho-sheesh...

I miss you, I miss you, and I love you. I am already 23 and you are the second person who ever made me feel this way. And it's crazy because I really don't want you to go. You make my sun go up and down, my butterflies, the only person who ever made me melt. I want to be with no one else but you.

EL--OW--VI--IH.

You're my favorite color, my favorite donut, my favorite white chocolate, yeah, better than Reese's, better than heaven, tastier than chocolate mousse, healthier than any veggie that I could think of, healthier than breathing per se.

You are everything that I've ever dreamt of. The personification of my must-haves and want-to-have. I have fallen so head over heels, and its sooper crazy. The only regret that I have right now is that I've never kissed you instantly when I felt like it, I never told you right in front of your face of how I really feel, and I never expressed the things I wanna do with you. Damn this I am crazy. I know that you are even more complicated than I am, yet I feel that I can change all that. I know I can. You are so like me, indifferent.

And I really like that about you.



And you really must be my everything.

And I must be really crazy to the bone.

I love you Jjamps even if you intend to not converse. I wish you could see this.

Good night.

Still in love with you.

Tried to contact one of my past's last night to go out with me next week, wala lang bonding and re-connect try to see if we could still make it work. Unfortunately, I wasn't replied by that dorkface whatever your name is stoopid. And then I remembered how achy you made me feel when I was the one who needs comfort and a hell lot of honesty.

And It sucks.

Pero I was kinda expecting to change all that hatred into something else. Again I failed. Yeah I'm willing to forgive Jamps pero sana you'd realize soon on whatever happened. I miss the days, I miss us. A lot. Today's my day-off pero I feel like going to your work to bring you lunch or pastries to keep you going. Doesn't matter if you want to thank me or not, seeing you happy and fulfilled is more than a gazillion thanks and kisses. You are the reason I keep on going and fighting, making sure I become a better person as you told me I would be. And I hope I could bring the days back. Rewind and bring you to my journey to Makati.

I miss the days I wonder why, why, why...of all people why you why me why us why this and that...pero you taught me that sometimes, you don't have to use adjectives and nouns to know how one is feeling. Sometimes it just shows. Gaano ka man ka layo ramdam mo pa rin.

I really miss you Jamps even if you're sooo stoopid you spell Jiampong with a double J, even if you were sobrang stoopid when you had a hard time conversing with those Amerikanos, even when you were soo stoopid you thought burritos were lumpiang sariwa, even when you have one pair of shoes, two sets of denims and that stoopid stoopid jogging pants you really like wearing with your flip-flops, despite all that, I still do love you. A lot.

Stoopid guy here willing to forgive.

Please comeback....

Return of the Comeback.

Hopefully this week would be stress-free. I really do hope so kasi I have plans of putting up another red flags denoting my comeback sa pagiging addict sa trabaho. I wanna do a week without any sort of event, gusto ko lang magpaganda ng floor ko. Gusto ko talaga makabawi kasi our team really ran out of time doing Mother's Day interior and window, plus a lot of event.

I miss those days na pagod ka pero you still have the strength to go on kasi you are loving what you are doing. Hay naku. We'll see, we'll see.

One of 'em days.

Happy Mother's Day to all Mommies out there! :)

Especially to mine!

The look of a hardworking man.

This is the week. Sobra, Makati is the place to be.

Hours of sleep per day: 3
Number of times ginising ng Big Boss: 3
Number of times napressure: EVERYDAY
Number of times pinagalitan ng Big Boss: PRICELESS


Now there's the answer to your question why I look like crap every single day.


Monday: Mother's Day Concept Making
Tuesday: ToyWatch Launch @ Rustan's Makati
Wednesday: ToyWatch Pull-out
Thursday: Pampanga Display
Friday: BMW Set-up
Saturday: BMW Pull-out

My god! And the sleepless nights doesn't end there! There's Alabang pa this week. Ho wow! Sana mabawasan lang ang phone calls ni Big Boss. Huhuhu....

Slimming pills.

I was given four pills by Ms. Ana, hopefully it works. So far, hindi ako gutumin. Not sure if that's a good thing pero hey, as long as it works. I really wanna lose a lot of fats, I wanna wear a lot of more fab outfits and I can't work it out with the body I have right now.


Come on give me some!

Working late.

Amazingly our office has internet connection na. With Kuya Belog, Kuya Ro, and Ezra, rushing on Mother's Day set-up. Grabe pero siguro hmm...the entire time doing my project I was listening to Destiny's Atlanta Concert. Haha..Plus there's Basement Jaxx, J.Jackson, Beyonce, The Bucketheads, John Mayer, and a whole lot more. The Barakos naman were hitting on porn flicks.

Haha! Love it! :) On our way home. Bye lovely world of internet connection.

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