We all cry. Lamang lang ako.

And why?

Loneliness?

Boredom?

Feel like your all alone and nobody listens?

Yes, yes, and yes.


I feel like I'm drowning deeper, and deeper everyday. I hate it talaga when people underestimates me and does not take me seriously, or at the most, respects my persona and all that of which I am. I am longing to find people who could mold me into a better person. Yun nga lang, as the saying goes, you are who your friends are. Bottom line, I attract people who shares the same vibes as I have.

I am bothered.

I have to change really before I become a monster.

Damn.


And then comes the concept of love. Love as in having a partner in life, whom you'll forever share your secrets with, someone whom you can run to when your totally screwed or bored with whatevers, someone whom you can just f*** around with whenever everyone else f***s your back a lot. Why can't I have one? Alam mo yun, you'd go for blind dates (which I do a lot btw) pero afterwards, wala. You can't even keep the friendship. Now that's quality f***ing.

Why?

i just don't get it.

And how about families?

Damn sometimes I feel like hindi nila naiintindihan needs ko eventhough we've been together na forever. God I really wanna runaway from it all and start anew. How I wish I have the money, the competence and the confidence to do just that and I swear, I'll make everything seem better than this hell I call my life.