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For almost a month now I haven't entered a single entry on my burn book. I have been so paralyzed by love that I have lost my mojo, well, plus the fact that I am so ashamed of myself and I have no plans of burning and scrutinizing myself . I so wanna die.

I wanna fly to another country. Work there for years, forget about love, run away from it all. Change my name, my id's and cards, have surgery, create a new me, start liking new dishes, ewan...

Ho god I am so pathetic.

If you don't know Jjampong, now you know you're gonna miss my love. If only all things are made clear to me. If only all things were spilled and not hidden. If only all things are expressed not oppressed. I have loved you this much I almost lost myself. Which is supposed to be good right? I have this theory in life kasi na sometimes one has to lose his way, change path, take the other road, the one that is dark and filled with thorns and mud, that road that people usually defies to take. And why choose that path? To be found.

I want to take a detour to find out what God really meant for me. Kasi I know in the end a lot of good surprises are well kept waiting to be unraveled.